[318] Over a month and I still dont wanna

—Update.

Yeah. Its been forever and a long time ago I said I would write about whatever it was that was bothering me but since its been so long I have no idea what it was! And I still have plenty to write about. Buuuut I don’t want to. But I will say one thing;

Ive been watching a lot of korean dramas and moves lately and I’ve fallen in love with Boys Over Flowers. Aka Hana Yori Dango.

Yeah. Hana Yori Dango is a japanese manga originally, but the story was so good that it got turned into like 4 live action dramas (japan, taiwan, korea and china). Hows that for success? But yeah I watched it in Korean because… well korean people are hot no matter WHAT and well. I like korean stuff more anyways. I dunno why. but anyways enough about that.

While delivering a student’s dry cleaning, Geum Jan Di saves the life of a student at the most prestigious school in Korea. Her actions soon become public and exposes the bullying within the school. To silence the public’s attention, Jan Di is offered a swimming scholarship to Shinhwa which she declines but her family forces her to attend.

During her first day at Shinhwa, Jan Di learns of the famous F4 and of the other students’ adoration and fixation with the boys in the group. Gu Jun Pyo, Yoon Ji Hoo, So Yi Jung, and Song Woo Bin are the richest and most powerful kids within Shinhwa and Korea. Subsequently, they use their power to terrorize weaker students or those they do not like. Jan Di, instead of being impressed, becomes enraged and fantasizes about confronting Gu Jun Pyo, the leader and initiator of many of the bullying acts. She gains courage to confront him when a friend accidentally spills ice cream on his shoes and he demands the girl lick it off. Jan Di defends her friend and attempts to reason with Jun Pyo’s tyrannical demand. When he refuses to relent, Jan Di turns violent, knocking Jun Pyo to the ground. Engaged by this, Gu Jun Pyo declares war on Jan Di and encourages the other students to bully her. Jan Di, however, is resistant, refusing to apologize to Gu Jun Pyo, and stands by her decision to fight him.

Ironically, Gu Jun Pyo, having never been stood up to, begins to develop feelings for her. He tries unsuccessfully to woo her as she slowly begins to spend more time with Jun Pyo and his friends. Jan Di teaches Jun Pyo that money cannot buy everything and in order to have real friends, he himself must be real or use his heart, but Gu Jun Pyo still does not understand why someone like Jan Di should dislike him. As the story progresses, Jun Pyo falls deeper in love with Jan Di and she learns how to open herself to his love as well.

As love begins to blossom, Jun Pyo’s mother discovers them and deems it unsuitable

Thats the synopsis written in Wiki. There was a little more but its kind of a spoiler and… it was even for me… I’m only like 2 episodes away from the ending. The music is pretty good too. It has music from Tmax and SS501 in it (although that Almost Paradise song is a fucking nightmare cuz it plays at all the wrong parts and its always “ALMOST PAAARADIIISSSEE” and it can get really annoying) also if you hadn’t noticed, Kim Hyun Joong* from SS501 and Kim Joon* from TMax are apart of the F4 in BOF so thats pretty cool.

*^Kim Hyun Joong

^Kim Joon

Cute arent they

Okay Im supposed to be getting ready for a Baby Shower and then work… so… later!

[317] Wonder

Alice: Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?”

Chesire Cat: “That depends a good deal on where you want to get to.”

Alice: I don’t much care where…”

Chesire Cat: “Then it doesnt matter which way you go.”

Alice: “–so long as I get SOMEWHERE.”

Chesire Cat: “Oh, you’re sure to do that, if you only walk long enough.”

 

- From Alice In Wonderland (the book)

 

 

This isnt an official update about anything. I just really like that part in the book. I love how you can take this book in any way you want to. Its rather eye opening.

 

There is an insane amount of things I should update on. But its 3:30 in the morning. I just got home from work not too long ago. I don’t feel like writing. So yeah.

[316] Hiiiiiiiiii :O

Blaaaah its been so long since I actually updated this! I mean I ranted on the previous entry about some retarded drama. it isnt fixed but its behind me. I actually found out a lot of things regarding so-and-so and Luis. Non are directly connected to each other… but to all the girls hes been talking to about me saying that I have a blog… Hi. A word of advice; Observe and pay attention, okay? Not me, but your boy toy. Thats all.

I havent been up to too much. Mostly hangin out with Pablo and Danny still. Danny’s cool. So far everyone agrees that he and I are quite alike. We’re the opposite gender versions of one another. Course, hes a little more daring when it comes to outfits and hair… this only being because Im not super duper skinny, just average, and My hair sucks ass lol but yeah. The three of us get along pretty well I would say. 

One particular night we started drinking at around.. 5 in the afternoon and had a good time… By 10 though, we drank so much that Danny was already passed out and puked a bit, Pablo completely abandoned the english language and started speaking in castellano to Oscar and I was the one translating as best I could, and I was just kinda there. I tend to sober up relatively fast for some reason…

The next morning I woke up with a hangover and had to go to court (06/02)… in bantam, ct. Whaaaaaaat the fuck? And thing is.. I didnt even know until my mom left me a message the night before at 11:30pm. Nice, huh? lol This was about my whole… state police incident when I was stupid enough to pick up Luis at 2am for … yeah… I already wrote about it so I dont feel like writing about it again. If I can find the post Ill just link it. but this happened like 4 months ago.

So mom drove me and dad to the court house all the way in fricken bantam and Im in the back seat of her SUV… and I dont think I can ever fully express how much I hate my Mother’s driving. As safe as she is, I feel… so unsafe. She drives kinda slow, first off, and then shes so scatter brained, god forbid she be on the phone while driving (which she does often and Im pretty much shitting bricks at this point). She… has sa tendency to push down on the gas pedal for a few seconds, then let it go. She does this the entire time she drives and each time it lasts about… 3 seconds before she takes her foot off the pedal again. Then, when she actually hits the brakes, which is often by the way, she preses down on it HARD. So you rock back and fourth along with the gas peal and everything. And this is an SUV. Suspension is ridiculous. So youre pretty much like on a fucking boat, and getting motion sickness. 

So Im in the back seat, suffering from a mld hangover, rocking back and fourth on this vehicle with my Mother driving. It wasnt fun. I didnt throw up though so thats good.

When I got to the court house, you have to go into the state.. attorney.. office thing by yourself. My mom is giving me a million papers like insurance cards pld and new, registration, blank checks, policies and everything.. and Im like wtf? I dont need all this. It was fairly easy. I was waiting for about 20 minutes. When I went into the office, it literally took less than a minute.. all the lady said was that the cop let me go on the speeding ticket (mother fucker had to, he wasnt clocking me so he cant say I was speeding!) but that she couldnt let me go entirely for the insurance card so she had me pay $20 and it was stricken from the record.

Thats it.

lol. Ridiculous. 30 seconds, 20 bucks and it disappears. But yeah! on to why I even brought this up. On the way home, Dad let me sit in the front due to my motion sickness. We stopped at a Dunkin Donuts on the way home and what do I see? A FUCKING SKYLINE. A nissan fucken Skyline STRAIGHT from Japan. Google it. but the one I saw was silver and had black decals on the side and stuff. Steering wheel was on the opposite side and everything and I was so mad and so taken aback by this gorgeous vehicle and the son of a bitch eye raping me with it.

And then… I saw a regular american skyline in like blue. Im like what is with today and these cars I cant ever have?! I was sad but happy to see them u_u;;

And yeah. That was that. I called Luis to tell him cuz I thought of him right away. He said the guy in the silver skyline is from torrington and he saw him drivin around and made him feel inferior. He also said if I wanted to hang out to give him a call when I get home and stuff but… I didnt.

One night while Danny Pablo and I were hanging out we ventured over to the korean market, Lotte, in Manchester. We bought some ddukbogi (there’s like a million ways to spell it…) which is my favorite. The first time I had it was with Chey~ her mom made it with ramyun. Yummness. While there, Pablo bought some other stuff too cuz he was gonna cook dinner for us. When we finally got home… I forgot what it was called that he made.. or rather, I cant spell it for crap.z it was so  yummy *-* we kept eating even after being so full.. it was hard to put down. We also drank that night but… thats nothing new, now is it?Last night Pablo and I watched Abre Los Ojos. We both saw Vanilla Sky and I found out its a remake of a spanish movie so we’ve been meaning to watch it for a while now and while he was at work I guess he took a break, wandered around the mall and found it, bought it and brought it home. So we watched that last night.

It was very good and the remake Vanilla Sky was really close to the original. Almost exact, even. And Penélope Cruz is in both of them shes so pretty. one thing I didnt expect though… is that there’s a scene where Sofia and Cesår are making love and.. you see Sofia’s, aka Penélope, boobs… yeah… they were nice

Today I was supposed to hang out with Kyle but ugh.. dont get me started on that. Rather annoyed with him. He bitches that I dont talk to him much anymore and that I haven’t made much time for him but then once I actually do (mind you, hes been working two jobs every day the passed two weeks so its not that I didnt have time…) he doesnt talk, he doesnt pay attention… he jsut sits there or goes away. What the hell am I supposed to do? I dunno. So fuck it.

Danny wants to hang out tonight. Pablo gets off at 9-9:30. I want to make cupcakes. Maybe we can do that tonight? I dunno~

Theres other stuff to write about but I can’t remember much, cuz I dont care lol

[315] The audacity!

Seriously, why do people feel the need to tell others that they and I have dated at some pont in time? CLEARLY its a fucking le, but why bother? Like I dont understand. And then, when people ask ME about it and I tell the truth, I get bitched out at? I dont fricken get it. But here, Durrett sent me ths on FB randomly today:

Never consider me a friend ever again. i hope you rot in hell after all you’ve done to me. You’ve got no idea what it means to be someone’s friend and no idea what it means to be a decent human being. i’m never defending you ever again, no matter who calls you a slut or a whore or a bitch.

Learn to tell the fucken truth about peeople and you wont get so much shit. And ppl call me a bitch a slut and whore because YOU are TELLING them  fucken cheated on one of the loves of my fucken Life with you! And it NEVER happened! We never even hung out on our own! Seriously yo, people need to grow the fuck up.

[314] So eventful, what a change!

Waaaah~ the passed 4 days have been so fun.

Before that I dont have much to update on. I’ve simply just been working every day is all. Work and hang out’s have kind of intertwined themselves, if that makes.. any sense… Does it?… No it doesn’t. But anyways.

I have so many days off of work, which actually really sucks.. I was working everyday for the passed 3 weeks, and although I hated being in the back room processing 8 boxes of shipment everyday (we would get about 30 boxes delivered to us every couple of days… how much does THAT suck?)… it was nice having something to do during the day! And now that all the shipment is mostly done… my hours have gone down again… I gotta get some damn credit to get more hours…

So! After work was sad and done, I started hanging out with Pablo and his friends Oscar and Erika (this is all thanks to Luis and I am grateful for that). They’ve come over like every night so far (just 4 days) and its been great every time. I remember Erika. We had a class together back in HS. Oscar looked familiar to me but Pablo says that he came to FHS during HIS senior year so… I definitely dont know him. And of course I met Pablo my Junior year. 

Its weird having people over, especially as often as I have recently… I don’t mind it… but at the same time its kind of awkward. I’ll just have to get used to it though because apparently they like hanging out with me, and vice versa! And of course there has been drama, as we all know, letting Luis into my life always comes with its own wonderful little presents and it comes in a fun filled box of chaos and drama <3!

I dont feel like going too much into it. To put it simply; he never changes. But Im trying to get passed it cuz I don’t want to divide him and his friends or take them away from him (even though I met 2 of them before him hehe >_> jk jk ). So… yeah.

Pablo has slept over 3 times. He was willing to watch Twilight with me, and did I mention he’s from Argentina so he speaks spanish? Oh and that hes Korean? No? Well, he is. Its really weird cuz like you see this tall korean kid (hot too, lets not forget that.) and youre expecting him to know english and korean but then.. he busts out the spanish and god help if if youre talking shit in spanish and hes around cuz he’ll understand it. And… I dunno. I never enjoyed the spanish language… I grew up with it, its not a big deal to me and I feel its extremely vulgar cuz.. I’m (1/2) puerto rican and we’re not very prim and proper. We’re loud ass, inconsiderate beings so.. I dont like it. But Pablo… oh Pablo. His dialect is completely different, and hearing him speak in spanish is fucking… ugh. So sexy. it sounds so beautiful coming from him.

And whats even more awesome, is that he does know some Korean and he sees me and I weird him out cuz I know an itty bitty bit of korean (random words!) and I know about k-pop and korean food and terms for people like oumma and oppa and stuff. So we weird each other out but at the same time we like that about each other. That and he says we’re a lot alike. 

Havent hung out with anyone else besides these three people. jen is in Florida and I miss her to death u_u but shes coming back on tuesday (midnight)! So Im excited. I wonder if she actually did get me a present like I asked her to >_> lol I asked her to bring me like a little $3 stuffed animal or something itty bitty.

Ohoh… Pablo apparently is going camping this weekend and he invited me. Hes not sure whos gonna go yet, cuz its not a concrete plan yet but that sounds pretty awesome. The only qualm I have with it is that its hot outside… and I cant sleep in the heat… but neither can Pablo. I wonder how this will work out~ 

Omg Ive spent so much money on booze! Ive gone to the packy 4 times this week. Its terrible. And Im so poor… well I’m not really.. Mom gave me some money, and I got paid yesterday so I’ve got about $700 in the bank at the moment but when I found out that I had over drafted AGAIN, I got so mad and just destroyed my debit card so I couldn’t used it anymore… but… I kinda shot myself in the foot by doing that because I cant get money out of the bank now… cuz my checks are all direct deposit… so in order to get money I need to either get another card, or go to the bank every tie and withdraw. Im just gonna get another card but not a debit card… just an ATM card. Keep my shit in track.

…I forgot what I was gonna… write about… crap! u_u

I have to mop, AGAIN! Why? Because these drunk assholes (jk lol) spill shit on my floor at least 4 times a night and it gets sticky! >_< DId I mention that one of the nights everyone came over, we actually hung out ont he roof for about 10 minutes? The roof is usually locked, but… coincidentally, that night it wasnt. So we climbed up there and it was rather fucken scary cuz pablo, Luis and I are deathly afraid of heights. Oscar claims hes afraid of heights but that asshole has gone sky diving so I call bs lol But it was really nice being there. But then last night they went up again, came back down, and when they wanted to go back up it was locked I think. Which is crazy and Im wondering when that happened… and who found out and how… u_u its so fun being on the roof! besides the whole, possible falling to your death.

I dunno what else to talk about and I have to clean again. mrah!

[313] Boo hoo

Quit victimizing yourself. No one believes it.

[312] I good you bid evening

u_u Work at 12 to 4 today! Then after that going to my Dad’s. hopefully he has some food there for me to steal… I dont really have much to update about. I’m just super fricken bored.

Last night I hung out with my lovey finally after like… 4 days. He had slept over last week but he had a doctors appointment the next morning for work so he couldn’t stick around… it was short lived. Since I havent had much money at all, I couldnt do much, so we really missed each other. So yesterday we went out to dinner~ we got Sushi <3 and then we went to Rita’s they had Coffee Custard and.. I hate coffee ice cream btu this was soooo good. It was the perfect… blend of coffee and whatever else they put in there. So it wasnt to coffee-ish at all.

After dinner and ice cream we went back to his place and he started playing Gears of War 2. It was pretty cool looking, despite Luis’ criticism of it.. then again he criticizes every game unless hes the one that chose it… but anyways, not important. I kinda liked it but its not my kinda game. I have a huge problem with it being off-centered… over the right shoulder. it’s just weird and awkward to me. 

But I ended up falling asleep! u_u I just couldnt help it. His room is so comfortable~ <3 he continued playing until around 12:30 and I woke up around 11:30 but while he was playing he kept stopping very once in a while and kissed me in my sleep. So cute~~ but I did end up sleeping over anyways though I didnt mean to. But he had work this morning at 8, which is why Im actually awake and updating at the moment instead of sleeping in until 11 and going to work directly afterwards.

Im supposed to be having people over tonight but I actually dont want to. Id rather just go to sliders~ hopefully nobody minds. Its just that my place is a mess and I actually really dont feel… like cleaning.

I’m quite hungry at the moment… but i think Ill save myself the money and buy myself a salad at Cosi for lunch! Im so poor… T_T; I have money in my bank account, finally, but my debit card broke actually so… Ive got $60 in cash and thats just about it. Quite sad… which reminds me I gotta fix the issue with my Capitol One card. Apparently, Im being charged for fees I didnt know I had like that stupid credit report stuff and something else I dont remember. I didnt ask for any of it and I dont get a credit report very often at all so I dont feel like paying monthly for it… I was wondering why I kept paying for my card but it didnt seem to make a damn difference and now I know why. Capitol one sucks ass.

And Im really just rambling…

I <3 Jason Lee and Penélope Cruz is adorable. For the record Im watching Vanilla Sky, thats why I mentioned those two and thats also where the title of this entry comes from.

And Im out!