[223] There’s my rainbow

Today has been a pretty good day so far~ <3

I hadn’t gone to sleep until like… 6am again and I woke up around 10 or so and played Cooking Mama on and off. I also did some more reading in Sabriel. Im at chapter…10 so far and I love it <3 I missed that book so much. I need to buy the second one, Lirael…

But anyways. Mom came by today and she’s been in a really good mood, which is always nice. She brings me the mail and asks “Did you apply for a credit card? cuz you got approved for $500.” so yeah. I got approved for a credit card with Capital One! So happy. Finally I can start building my credit. So thats the first thing.

Then after that, Dad tells me that he was doing a job on the side that Mom doesn’t know about so he should be getting paid from that very very soon, and he said he would give me the $2k for the car I want… also, Dad is going to pain my room and get rid of the green wall completely (as in tear it down) which will make my room even bigger and its what I wanted for sooooo long cuz I hate how small my room is. So I get my car and a bigger room!

And THEN while Mom was at the store, Lara calls me from Victoria’s Secret and makes me an offer! I’m getting paid less than I am at Fuji’s but more than I was at Jasmin Sola so its pretty awesome. I start next monday with training and paperwork and they also changed their dress code to just 90% black attire. You have to look professional and business like, but you dont have to purchase blazer after blazer which is nice <3.

So… second job, new car, bigger room, and new credit card all in one day! I dont think things could get any better. Although there is one thing that is kind of bad. Or weird. I dunno if its bad yet… It’s about Mom. Shes making a new kind of soup that she tried a little while ago and apparently loved it… it involves coconut milk, pigs feet and beef tripe which I… believe is stomach. O_o I’m not too happy about eating this. lol. But whatever… I’ll give it a try… >_>;;;

But yeah, awesomeeee <3 So happy.

[222] seeewwwww what

I stumbled across “What not to Wear” on the TLC channel and this show has always bugged me. Because no matter WHO they find, they always give them all the same. damn. style. And right now they have this 24 year old girlw ho is an interior designer that dresses kinda ’skater punk’ as they labeled it…. I understand she has a career, but when shes out casually she should be able to wear what she wants. To me, her style is perfectly fine. And already Ive seen the outfits they want her to wear and…. like I said, it’s the same style they give everybody with expensive high wasit designer jeans, purses and hand bags, weird ’blouses’ with floral prints, or ruffles or some shiny pattern on it.. and it’s just annoying.

Moving on from that. I played some WoW today and for like an hour I was doing a couple quests.. I’m fully rested… and in all that… just 1 bar of experience was full… so after that Im like… forget it and decided to go to the mall so I could do something today other than play WoW. It was like 5 when I went though o_o;;; but it didnt seem to be closing anytime soon. Shitload of people were there at 5:30. But yeah, I went into EB Games (thats one thing thats kinda bugged me. EB stands for Electronic Boutique, right? Where did the whole Games part come in? I never saw it lol) and bought Cooking Mama FINALLY. Its only been out for like 2 years and I just now got it.

After that I went to Micahels. I wanted to buy some fabric and floss so I could sew some more (I finished the cupcake! Its cute but I messed up on the whipped cream and my stitching is a little messy… but whatever, practice will make it better <3) but I went into Michael’s not knowing what I needed! I didnt know what color floss and fabric to get, but I know I needed pins. Then I thought of maybe making candy like Everett does… which isn’t CANDY candy, it’s just a term ravers use for those colorful bead bracelets they wear. But I couldnt find the string or a box for the beads like the one Everett had so I figured I’d just come another day with a list of things to get o_o;

Next to Michael’s was Borders so I figured I would go in there and pick up Sabriel. I went in and stayed at the Manga section for a good….half hour. Nothing popped out at me though… it was really sad! Well, ONE did. It was titled “Kieli” and it sounded like a really good story once I read the back but it was 10.99! O_o Most Manga are just $10 and I should have gotten it but I’ll just go on my usual site and get it for cheaper I ventured over to craft books and picked up another on sewing. This one had patterns and instructions on making bags and all sorts of other cute things which I figured would be really handy once I started getting better and actually selling my creations. So I decided on getting that, I found Sabriel, Lirael and Abhorsen and picked up Sabriel. unfortunately it wasnt the original cover art… it was just the signs of a necromancer… I liked the original better because it has Sabriel on the front in her necromancer outfit with her bells but whatever~

While I was in Borders, thats when a blanket of rain came down. It was insane @_@! I had already bought the book and it was still pouring… I didnt want to get my hair wet. Everything else I didnt really care about other than my purchase. So… I went outside, put the books in my bag and used the plastic bag like a hat while everyone else just stood in front of the door waiting for the rain to stop. The books and my hair survived just fine. But I did end up walking through a pool of water and since I wear converse… well, it wasnt too fun.

But yeah, got home, cleaned my room.. Im actually still in the process of that but I stopped to eat and update this. Cant wait to play <3 

 

 

… Why am I watching hannah montana

[221] Destructive rose

I’m afraid to go to sleep. I don’t want to dream about him. Far too many times have I woken up crying.

[220] Let me breathe

The passed few days have been kind of eventful, for a change. I dont quite remember when everything took place cuz Ive been lazy but whatever.

On Wednesday it was a bad day. Not horrible, but it wasn’t that great. My parents got into another one of their ridiculous argument about my Mom’s phone bill and how this one phone number keeps showing up and that it’s my moms boyfriend or whatever. I keep telling my Dad to just let it go because its not going to change and that she can talk to whoever she wants to because they haven’t been together, but he doesn’t seem to understand that. Or he just doesn’t care. I dunno.

Then Luis IMed me pretty much begging me to help him out with his financial issue. At first he didn’t really tell me what he wanted, other than my help and I thought he was asking for money. But he wants a job with my family again and he said that the only reason he’s coming to me is because me and my family have helped him out before. Every time he’s had trouble, we have helped him out. Mom let him borrow $200, gave him a job paying him $18 an hour, she paid for the vet bills for Nexi and I was working at Fuji’s at 11 hours a week, all my money went right to Luis. Whatever it is that he needed I got it for him. So of course, he comes to me again when he needs more help.

I didn’t really understand, and I didnt think it was fair. I told him not to talk to me, and here he is asking me for help. He has a girlfriend, and he loves her right? So if they love each other so much, why can’t she help him? It’s not my job anymore to take care of him. And it’s not fair that hes roping me in like that, and after everything he’s done to me… wtf

But of course, I caved and told him I’d see what I could do. he told me to keep him informed and honestly I don’t want to. I dont see why he feels the need to talk to me. Theres no point. He knows I dont want him in my life, I dont want to be apart of anything that involves him. It’s bad enough that I still have random thoughts of him. NONE of them are happy things. It’s just m hearing all the awful things he’s said to me and all the lies he’s told me. I’m not over that still. And how long it’s been, and how long we could have been together had he not left me for someone else… it’s a constant reminder. Tomorrow would be our 2 year anniversary…

After that I was just so upset. I was on the verge of crying and decided to just run away from it and asked Kyle to go to the mall with me so I could get some applications. But in the middle of all that Lauren had also IMed me to let me know that I got the job at Victoria’s Secret, which is pretty awesome. I just don’t know what I start. So by then going to the mall was pointless… but I attempted to buy some clothes. it was a little awkward at first hanging out with Kyle considering the night before I refused to come over and told him why (hed ignore me and play Warhammer all night). It was decent at firs though. We went into Forever 21 and he had me try on a red dress. He loved it apparently. I however was on the fence about it. I’m not one to wear dresses much less… a RED one. Where would I wear such a thing?

I ended up not buying anything and it was then that kyle realized that I am by no means, an impulse buyer. I have $1k in my account and here I am not buying anything, regardless of how much I want it. Afterwards we went to Borders and I bought a couple books on making plushies and such. I’m working on one right now actually. It’s a cupcake Im stuck on making french knots though…

After Borders I dropped Kyle off at his house cuz he had a 10 page paper to write. I was going to Everett’s anyways so I didnt care much. It was a really fun night at Everett’s. Thee were some guy there that I didn’t know, one named Dawson and the other was… Chris who was a little obnoxious and I apparently blew his mind simply because I’m a hot girl that plays an immense amount of video games and am awesome at them. We played Soul Calibur 2 and Everett and I rocked everyone repeatedly. However when it came down to Me vs Everett, it always got soooo very close but he would win. But it’s alright, they still think I’m awesome. I ended up staying there until like…3am. Everett wanted me to sleep over but I went home. Kyle was texting me from like..2-4am in hopes of getting me to come over. It was rather annoying. Here I am trying to have fun, I’m out with my friends for the first time in a long time and he’s trying to take me away from it cuz he’s all of a sudden lonely, even though I come over as often as I can and all he does is sit there playing a game. So yeah. Didnt go to his place afterwards. I went straight to bed I think.

Thursday… I went to dinner with Sean. We had sushi and he paid for everything. Was fun, a little awkward at first but it was fun. I’m not used to just going to dinner casually with one other person.

After that I went home.. and Chrissy called me around 11 asking me to come over and have some drinks. I had nothing better to do and I was damn sure Kyle wasn’t going to talk so I went. We ended up heading to Cedar and going to Paul’s apartment and hanging out thee. There was a gigantic group of people outside another apartment building, I forgot the name of it. We were watching them form outside in hopes that the cops would come and we’d see a sea of people scattering and surely enough we did. It was rather hilarious and the entire time we’re yelling obscenities down at them.

Not long after I drove Chrissy and Joanne home. I didnt feel like sticking around too long.

Yesterday I went to work and it was incredibly busy, but it’s okay. Stacey and I welcomed it. after work I went to wal*Mart and bought some white t-shirts and sharpie’s for the graffiti party at Ev + Mike’s that night. I had a fun night, I drank a bit for the first time in a very long time. I was there until 3am again. Everett Jan and Matt…and Mike had smoked A LOT. By that time, Jan and Everett were passed out on the couch and Mike and Matt for some strange reason were still playing beer pong. Earlier around 1:30 we ventured out to mcdonalds. After eating mcdonalds… we wanted to go again >_>;; we didn’t though.

After that I didnt really want to sleep alone. Everett was already passed out on the couch. So I decided to go to Kyle’s. I just wanted to sleep though really. Kyle clearly did not. Never does. Sex is always involved. *sigh*

I left his house this morning around….10ish and Ive been up ever since and I’m so tired. We didt get to bed until at least 5 and his alarm was going off since 9 which is so fucking aggravating. Why would you set an alarm to go off an hour before you’re actually going to leave and then put it on snooze and have it ring like every 20 goddamn minutes? Annoying as fuck. So yeah. I left, watched some tv. Tried to nap and that failed, so I started working on the cupcake thing. I was going to play WoW but…eh. My subscription runs out on the 29th. Woo hoo, His and Jessica’s 1 month anniversary! Least it was last year. Now its a year and 1 month. Yay them! Congratulations douchebag.

Ugh I need to get out of here.

[219]

omg this episode of Gossip Girl is so like the situation with me and luis.

[218] XoXo

Passed couple of days Ive been trying to will myself out of the house so that I could go to AC Moore or Michaels and purchase some supplies for some ideas I have in mind. I figured I’d try Amigurumi, it doesnt seem too too hard and its the most adorable stuff ever so it’s… perfect for me basically. Also I figured that I would try cross stitching again but instead of buying patterns Ill just use pictures as references. I have a picture of the little cat pattern that Chey gave me years ago and well… it doesn’t seem too difficult to do by memory.

Today Kyle and i were supposed to hang out… go to Borders, have a coffee and just read together and/or have lunch together.  Unfortunately he got out of class around 3, didnt get home till 4 and had another class to go to at 6 which is really important and he cant skip (Its his EMT class)… and he wasn’t very hungry and I figured that a couple hours at a book store wasn’t sufficient enough for the both of us. When I’m at a book tore I send hours there and he loves literature just about as much as I do… So we decided on Wednesday we would hang out and possibly tonight after he gets out of class… but I dunno.

So the weather is getting colder which means that really nice clothes and styles are bound to surface for fall and winter and it makes me very, very happy. I’ve already git a lot of ideas for outfits and now that my hair is a little bit longer, it looks a lot cuter now and its got layers so its much better than last year. It just needs to be longer… but with cute hair comes cute outfits and of course I’ve always been able to pull high fashion off (Hah! Conceited much!?)… so I’m excited. I just need to… get tot he mall and do some shopping which I’m sure Mom would have no problem helping me out with, financially anyways…

I wanted to curl my hair a bit today but unfortunately I have no tools… all I have is my flat iron and of course you cant put waves or anything in your hair with a flat iron. My mom’s stuff is all gone so that means all the hair products we have went with her as well… which is kind of annoying. =_= my hair is too flat and I cant do anything about it! rawr

I’m watching Gossip Girl right now and it makes ms o happy. I <3 this show sooo much.

So on to the drama. Last night I had a dream about Luis! First time in a very very long time. I don’t quite remember a lot from the dream (thats a first). I remember the colors black and red and he was trying to get me to do something. Probably to sleep with him, since thats usually how it always goes. But yeah, the moment I woke up I had this… bad vibe and I thought “…. hes gonna talk to me today.” and surely enough, he did! He asked me if I had tried calling him and clearly I havent, I have no reason to. He then continued to tell me that his phone literally broke in half and is no more and has been without a phone for about a week now. he also told me that by the end of this week he was moving out and he still doesnt have a job. He also told me he was bored, asked about Blizzcon and Warhammer and didnt seem content with the fact that I’m hanging out with Kyle still.  then continued to say (after the Kyle thing) “It doesnt matter if I was seeing someone or not because youve been dating someone for a year now”. He completely ignored that, and any other gf comments I had, which is better for him because he’s bound to say something stupid.

Figures a dream of Luis would only bring impending stress.

Hmm, tomorrow morning my Dad is going to the hospital for some kind of surgery. Im not what exactly but no doubt its something about his cancer. Least I think its surgery, I have no idea. He needs me for a ride later on because he doesnt want to stay at the hospital… not too happy about that but w/e, what could I possibly do anyways?

Oi, I dunno what else to write about at the moment.

oh! I wanna go to the Big E. Ive never been. On the 28th is a classic car show. Maybe Ill go with Ryan~

[217] 46° ☃

Its far too cold outside >_< and that makes me happy! It’s the best time of the year. This means I’m good for cuddling at night (which makes Kyle happy) and Halloween is coming and everything is super pretty <3 …and then its followed by months of awful freezing cold, traffic accidents, and nights where you have to go outside and shovel the driveway until 5am and hope it doesnt ice over! But on the bright side… you get to wear really pretty outfits fall and winter fashion is the best.

Im sitting in my room at the moment and Im really fucking cold, and I have a sweater…shirt…on. Its so cute <3 I’d turn the heat on but… I dunno. I dont think we really need it. A blanket will do. I’d love a white mocha latte though… ☕

But yeah! Uhm, earlier today Lauren called me. She was doing reference checks on my application apparently Lara was out last week and such which is why I hadnt gotten a call. Sos he called my Mom and Stacey and such. So.. this is good! <3 And not too long ago Chrissy called and left a message. She works at Steve Madden Shoes… her manager was asking if she knew anyone that wanted a part time job and she mentioned me and such. I’m not so keen on the idea because Bridget works there and Bridget was flirting with Luis while I dated him and he seemed interested in her so it’s kind of a touchy thing for me… and apparently she hates Chrissy because she dated Bridget’s ex bf… which is silly cuz its not like she stole him or he cheated… thought he probably did… I dunno. We’ll see how VS is gonna work out.

After work I went to Stacey’s house and played with Gizmo! She is such a cute kitten and she has such gorgeous eyes. Theyre copper colored just like Nexi’s were… after that we went over to Matt’s house. There were a few people there… it was alright but for some reason I just didnt feel like sticking around… so after about an hour I came home.

I’ve been so bored and unsatisfied with everything… like, I dont want to play WoW, I dont want to play any VGs (although I found ToA which makes me so happy!), I dont want to draw… although I do want to do something creative. I wanted to make some little charms and stuff but once I start I don’t really want to. I want to do some cross stitching but the designs at the stores are so…grandma-ish… so I’m trying to find some online since those are where the good ones are apparently. I wanna try my hand at Amigurumi too but its rather complicated… it’s pretty much knitting but so much cuter and worth it. But I think Im too stupid! o_o! …but it wouldnt hurt to try… I wanna read too =_=;;

but eh… i’m level 63 in WoW right now. Leveling is taking quite a bit but it’s not too awful. I’m just not as motivated now. WotLK comes out November 13 and I really want it and I really need to get to 70 before I start leveling to 80… but still. I’m just not feelin’ it. A small break would do me good I think.

Raaaawwrr I’m cold…

And for some reason, I think this video is just hilarious and cute.

 

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OMG this one is even better!