[255] Old skool pals

I want to update this but at the same time I dont. Just know that I went over Jen’s tonight and had a blast, though Im rather embarrassed cuz I sucked at singing…. and in reality I dont suck. lol. And I got cookies! And I really miss everyone T_T we need to hang out a lot more… this was a lot of fun.

We pretty much jsut played Rock Band 2 all night and then watched Ryan and Ray try otu Mirror’s Edge. It was quite hilarious and I didnt realize how nervous I get whenever Faith falls…

But yeah. Thats pretty much all I feel like writing. lol.

[254] Not a fan, sir, not a fan

Happy Thanksgiving, yeah. Now that we got that out of the way…

I bought a guitar! And she’s beautiful. I don’t have it with me yet… I’m getting it on Monday cuz I ordered it online. It’s Mom’s xmas gift to me it’s so pretty though! It’s a Fender Starcaster in ‘Candy Apple Red‘… Did you expect it in any other color? Of course not, I live for red! ^-^ I’m so excited. I’m not taking any lessons though. Everyone that I know that play a Bass or Guitar have taught themselves and since I know so many I’m pretty sure if I had any questions none of them would mind answering. Though it would primarily be Jen that I would ask seeing as… my other guys play Bass and Piano… what the fuck?! lol Oh! And Edward is learning to play Guitar too so I can ask him for pointers (Lauren’s bf). He plays Bass as well so I’m sure he’ll have no problem learning Guitar.. and he did offer to teach me bass…

I am going to learn bass as well though just not yet. I’m also going to get a Piano! Or rather, a keyboard. I’ve wanted to learn Piano since I was 3 and apparently it runs in my Fathers side of the family. They literally all started playing at the age of 3 and branched out into other instruments so… it’s a very musical family so I guess that’s where I get this from. After all my real pops was a DJ. The keyboard I found is only about $200 online and it has lessons right on it, and again I can always ask a number of people for help if I need it which.. will probably be primarily Steve. So by next month I’ll have both. I can afford the keyboard right now its just.. why would I start learning two completely different instruments at the same time…

But anyways! I had a dream that I was playing the Piano, and though the meaning of the actual dream meant that I needed some ‘harmony’ in my life, it pushed me to getting one. Plus it helped that Robert Pattinson was in there. lol.

Also on Monday… we’re finally getting our new countertops for the bathroom.. if Dad decides to install everything then our bathroom will be completed! And it’ll be awesome. I’m so tired of sharing a bathroom… I hate sharing a bathroom! I don’t know why, really, I just think its disgusting having other people in my bathroom. Naked. And stuff.

Aside from our bathroom possibly being finished, I have my retraining program to go to from 6-10. Mom said she’d go with me so I wouldn’t get bored but really what could she do to keep me entertained in there?… Nothing O_o; besides I’m perfectly capable of surviving a boring class for a number of hours. Thats what High School was for!

Lets see what else… I’ll get my license back after that class too and once THAT happens, Mom is giving me the keys to her apartment and I’ll be staying there for as long s I want to by myself. So I can practice my guitar without interruptions and just chill out, have some people over.. no parties though. I don’t want to u_u But it’ll be so nice to get away from everyone and everything, and I can work on my art and stuff! And I wont have to be confined to my room~

I also have to work on Monday… a lot of things going on that day O_o my schedule starting Sunday is just utter crap to begin with:

Friday 11am-330pm (yayyyy Black Pink {haha, get it? Cuz I fork at Victoria’s Secret and we sell PINK?… hehe… yeah…} Friday…)

Saturday 1230pm-430pm

Sunday 6pm-12am

Monday 9am-2pm

Tuesday 6am-10am

Wednesday 10am-2pm

Seriously?! Im opening 3 days in a row! My nights will be free but it won’t matter if I have to be up early as hell the next day. T_T

Uh. I forgot what else I wanted to write about. I got distracted by my music… Ive become rather obsessed with Lady GaGa. Diego showed me her “Just Dance” music video WAAAAAYYYY before she became popular. I didn’t know she had other songs though… so yeah that’s what distracted me.

As the title of this entry states, I am not a fan and if you couldn’t tell or didn’t know, I’m not a fan of Thanksgiving. I dislike my family and since my Mom and Dad don’t even live together anymore… this holiday is more a slap in the face than anything else O_o; Then again I’m generally not a Holiday person anyways. But still. 

Mom still came over though and she’s still making a turkey but nobody is coming over and I’m pretty sure she’s leaving once she finishes cooking. But I hav no idea really. And Dad was supposed to be working and going over to his Sister’s today so I’m most likely going to be home alone… I remember a couple years back Diego and I went over Jen’s after our thanksgiving meal and hung out there and hung out. We messed around with a glove and Diego blue air into it and pretty much turned it into a balloon and Jen played.. Max Payne I think it was. It was so much fun. Pictures were taken of course and I would post some of them but I would only with their consent. But yeah… a lot of fun but unfortunately we can’t do that again I’m sure. Jen would probably go over to Joe’s or something, I don’t have transportation and Diego’s family probably wants to keep him there since he lives at school. D: ah such is life.

Its cool though. Not like I’ve grown used to being stuck at home… lol

‘Control your poison babe, roses have thorns they say

And we’re all getting hosed tonight’

[253] I should never think

I was going to update this right after I got home from the movies on Friday morning (cuz it was like 3:30am when I got home) but what I had initially wrote just seemed do fangirlish that it was rather embarrassing.

So anyways… Lauren and I had gone to the Twilight midnight premiere at Loews Theatre. We had left around 10 because we figured there would be tons of little tweens there, and there were. Quite a few people from FHS that neither one of us liked, but what can you do? We bought some Icees and while doing that I saw Jose… from my art class at Tunxis. He’s a co-manager! So it was nice seeing him again. While we waited in line for like an hour and ahalf to be let into the rooms Jose came and visited us and talked to us. It was fun~

Once we finally got in there… it was rather surreal. Lauren and I were  extremely excited it could barely be contained, but of course we behaved ourselves and much to our surprise so did the young audience. There were parts of the movie where everyone in the room laughed and it was comforting; we understood why it was funny because the majority of us had read the book. Or at least that’s how Lauren had said about it.

The movie itself was fantastic. Lauren and I were quite pleased with the outcome; it followed the book really, really well. Of course not EVERYTHING was in there like the parts where Bella starts sitting with the Cullen’s at Lunch. Other things were changed a little bit like at the beginning when Bella first gets her truck and Billy and Jacob are there. In the book, Jacob isn’t really introduced to Bella until she goes to La Push with everyone. But really it’s not a big deal. They were taking a 600+ page book and condensing it to 2 hours with a budget of what… $40 million? Or something like that. They did extremely well and the cast was fantastic. I was skeptical about Kristen Stewart. I didn’t see her as Bella but she played an ‘average whiney girl’ quite well, but she was far less annoying in the movie than in the book. I even like Edward more int he movie than in the book. In the movie, he’s much more awkward and it makes you fall in love with him even more… I mean really, when you see a really attractive guy being as elusive as Edward and as awkward you can’t help but be intrigued by them.

Or maybe that’s just me.

But anyways. The movie was fnatastic and as I said I think it came out really great and Lauren, jackie and I all want to see it again and we are actually going to. Jen also wants to see it, Ximena saw it the same night I did at bucklands. Diego seems interested in seeing it again and Kyle would like to see it as well. So I’m pretty certain I’m going to see this movie quite a few times. And supposedly production for New Moon (second movie for those who don’t know) starts in january. Then again this is an unofficial statement. But we all know it’s coming. I just hope it isn’t finished in like 2010. I’m interested in how they’re going to make Taylor Lautner appear 27ish by the second movie… I’m sure it’ll work out just fine.

I still feel like I never saw it. Im kind of in shock still…

On Friday I hung out with Steve. We saw Quantum of Solace and I’m not gonna lie, I really didn’t want to. I don’t like going to the movies and I had just gone there the night before! Not only that but I really don’t like Bond movies… but I gave it a chance and kind of enjoyed it. This Bond wasn’t so much a womanizing whore with nifty gadgets that he doesn’t really need because he can talk his way out of any situation. This one was more badass. A little more admirable. No fancy gadgets either which I liked. After that we went to Barcelona in West Hartford. It was nice I guess… a little uncomfortable because there were so many people there and there was  a DJ… so instead of it being a nice little bar it was like a club. So did not want to be in that atmosphere but Steve didn’t seem to want to leave. I would have much rather had gone to Tisane but whatever. I was actually asked to dance by a few people when Steve wasn’t around. One of them being a woman who seemed at least 5 years older than me. I guess that’s cool.

Yesterday I hung out with Stapleford. We watched Wall*E and Corpse Bride and made a pizza. I ended up sleeping over cuz by the time we were finished with both movies and stuff it was like 4:30am and figured it was pointless plus he pretty much invited me to sleep over. He dropped me off at home at around 1ish. His band was recording today. I wonder how that went…

I had work at 5 and just got home. Another floorset, but we actually finished much earlier than we usually do. it was rather productive. Tomorrow however… Lauren, Diana, Jackie and I have to come around 8ish to do window displays… until 2am. Apparently they’re quite involved and our displays are including an entire armoire… why such a huge thing for a window is necessary I have no idea.

Lauren and I were talking in the car about.. well, me pretty much. I told her I was worried about myself… I’ve mentioned it quite a few times in here but I never talked to her about me being… ‘emotionally dead’. I explained to her that for some reason I don’t feel anything for anyone and I’m not as passionate as I used to be when involved with another person. Or rather, with another guy… should make that clear. I told her that I’ve pretty much become like my Mom in that I don’t want anyone in my life. I don’t feel anything, though I want to and I feel I should. That even with Steve, as awesome as he is… there’s nothing and it scares me. I shouldn’t be this way when I’m so young, right?

The only explanation Lauren had was that there might be something in my subconscious… I don’t want to let someone in like that again and that the right guy just hasn’t come along yet. She said not to worry about it and that it would happen eventually. After that I told her I didn’t think I would find it here and she said she’s hoping I don’t stay here. She agrees with me that I should get out and live my life and experience other places and that I’ll probably find.. whoever it is I’m supposed to be with, somewhere.

So yeah.. I’ve been in a rather pensive mood for a few days now which I guess explains why I haven’t really updated or spoken to anyone really. I’ve pretty much given up on keeping contact with Kyle. He just seems so disinterested in anything and everything involving me that I just don’t feel like putting any energy into salvaging whatever it is we have left friendship wise. He claims he’s busy but really, his schedule is no different than it was a couple months ago so there isn’t any excuse. But what can ya do?

There is… so much more on my mind but I really don’t have the will to write it all down and I’m pretty sure anybody reading this wants to hear it. Listening to classical music doesn’t help my pensiveness…

[252] Gonna be a good night

Oh mean I’m so excited! Tonight at midnight Lauren and I are going to see Twilight~! <3 ^-^ We already bought tickets earlier. I wonder if she got the free download of Bella’s Lullaby remix… Jackie couldn’t come with us unfortunately. I forget why. But we’re gonna tell her about it and I told her I wouldnt mind seeing it again. Or three times. Or every night. lol.

Jen wants to see it too and I know damn well that Ximena wants to see it, so I’ll go again on another night with them whenever they are free ^-^! Kyle wants to see it too! lol Oh man Im gonna see this movie quite a few times… so worth it though I’m sure. For Taylor and Robert alone, it’s worth seeing it.

I’ll talk more about the movie later.

On another note! I got Mirror’s Edge for my 360 the other day and can I just say, I really suck at it. lol. I mean I knew I was gonna be bad at it. It’s FP…RPG? And I suck at anything FP cuz th angle just bugs the crap out of me. If I can see the character then I know whats going on but I know that FP is  little more realistic and makes it seem more like you’re in the game but I just… really, really suck. But it’s still a good game! I love the mechanics of it and the graphics are pretty awesome. I just need to practice more. A lot more. Jen downloaded a demo for it and she’s playing it now. She’s good at these sorts of games though so I’m sure she’ll have a good time with it. She also noted that we can play rockband live together cuz I can borrow the game and copy it and it’ll be.. like I have it… but I still need the instruments. I wonder if singer would work no there too? I dunno. We’ll figure it out.

I don’t have too much to update on. The movie and the game we’re pretty much the extent of it. lol. So more later! Im gonna go eat and change.

[251] Lucky lil bitch, arent I

I had court this morning!

It sounds dreadful but it really wasn’t bad at all. The fact that I was up so fricking early, put me in a good mood. Yeah. Im weird.

I was up at like 6, though not willingly. One of our cats… who I actually dislike quite a bit, decided to come into my room and boot al over the damn floor. I was livid. Cats are such jerks sometimes. But it’s okay… I cleaned it up and kicked the bitch out of my room. I attempted to fall asleep after that but my alarm was set for 7 anyways so it was relitively pointless.

I was getting ready by 7:30 and Dad said we’d leave at 9 to get there at 9:30. So… i couldve slept in, had I known u_u

It was weird being in the passenger side of my car. And I hate how my Dad drives it… it’s like he has a led foot! It’s not a diesel truck, ease up a bit. But anyways, we got there and Paul, our Lawyer, showed up around 10. He mentioned that he remembers seeing me when I was much, much younger and this was the first time I had ever seen this man. Or so I thought. My Dad’s known him for 25 years and he knows his wife and was actually friends with her when they lived in Canada. Though that’s not how he met Paul. Crazy.

Anyways. Paul went in, spoke to the prosecutor… and that was it. Within 10 minutes it was all over. My suspended license was wiped. All I have to do is take the class and I get it back no problem. No fee or anything. For my speeding ticket we’re going back January 9th but as long as I behave until then it will also be erased from record.

So I’m golden. Paul’s a damn good lawyer. Hes helped like everyone in my family with shit and gotten them off with simple fines or tasks. Like.. apparently when my sister was in high school, she pulled the fire alarm and went to court… and instead of thousand dollar fines, all she had to do was community service. Awesome sauce. o_o;;

So… I got someone to cover my shift at work, thank god, and now my day is pretty much wide open… Granted I still don’t have my license till I take the class but thats on Dec. 1 so it’s not that bad at all. Mom is coming by later and bringing me Wall*E! Im so happy she bought it for me <3 Im so watching it right when I get it. I’m also making Stapleford watch it. Maybe even Steve. And Lauren. And anyone else >_>;

On Thursday Lauren Jackie and I are thinking of going to the movies to see Twilight at the midnight premiere if there aren’t too many tweens in there. Otherwise we’ll try again in the morning and if not the next day. But I don’t care. I will see it 3 times if I have to. lol I dont mind! 

*sigh*… Im home alone. Now what do I do D:

[250] Enter Gamer

Iiii just got my 360! Well, mom brought it home for me… wasn’t expecting that really. However, I can’t get online just yet. I have to go buy the wireless adapter, which is fine Im in no hurry or anything. I’m going to.. try to get some games as soon as possible, though it came with two games already… Kung Fu Panda and Indiana Jones lego adventure >_> I was playing Kung Fu Panda and it’s actually really fun… *loser* it’s more a game my Mom would enjoy lol but I still like it. Plus Jack Black pays Po and he’s just awesome. And despite the fact that it’s a silly kids game off a movie, and those are always a bad idea to buy if you’re not…. under the age of 14, iiiii enjoy it. I like the Tiger lady…

And the graphics are quite impressive. Can’t wait to see em on other games. Needless to say I’m.. ecstatic. It’s a nice little addition to my console family. Next is the PS3! Just kidding… I really don’t want it. Though it’s the console I was supposed to get… my friends and I kind of made this weird agreement a few years ago that we don’t get the same game consoles because it’s pointless to have the same games at everyones house… I got the Wii so Jen got the 360 and nobody got the ps3… and since I’m usually the one that’s spoiled like all hell I guess it was up to me to get it but I really, really, reaaaalllly didn’t want it lol and we don’t really hang out anymore and when we do we don’t really go to Jen’s house so nobody was really using her 360 except for maybe her, her brother’s and Joe. So I guess it isn’t so bad that I got it too. And her’s is black >_> I got the normal one. If it proves worth it I’ll get the ps3… in two years. Or more. *dragging it out*

I made a list of all the games I want and how much it’ll cost to get all of them overtime. Including the Rockband 2 Special Edition pack (which includes all the instruments) it would be about $437 but yeah I’m not getting them all at once. So it doesn’t really matter. All the games I want for 360 are about $60… including Halo 3… I cant believe that never went down in price u_u but it’s not so surprising… it’s why I wanted it in the first place… but I’ll have no one to play with! I’m not sure Jen has Halo 3. I’m sure Sean does. But then I can always just meet other people online. That’s always fun.

Yesterday was… Sunday as far as I can remember. I had a meeting at VS in the morning and met one of our new employees! Terra or however she spells it. She’s quite overbearing but hopefully with time she’ll become more tolerable. Though her processing needs work… after the meeting I had work at 4 to 10 for replenishing. I was working with Lauren but unfortunately we couldn’t get very much done because there was only two of us for the whole store and we spent most of it undoing mistakes other associates did and putting damage tags on quite a few bras that were stocked incorrectly. We were… rather pissed at that.

While I was working though, Steve called me! That was a surprise. He was apologizing for just getting back to me for a voicemail I left him a couple days ago. We haven’t spoken much since and, like I mentioned earlier, I thought he was upset with me for not being affectionate and what not. Turns out he thought I was the one that was mad cuz he had been so busy. He then explained that it’s going to be like that quite often cuz he works, goes to school and has band practice. he was hoping I would understand that and said that he doesn’t want to keep me waiting and I called him a dumbass to think i would get upset for him having a life. He laughed it off and seemed really happy afterwards, I guess he was surprised that I was okay with it all. I’m happy he called me at all, and the fact that he was so apologetic over it… it was cute ^-^ I’m glad he has a life. If I see him too often I’ll grow sick of him… not that he’s a bad guy or annoying or anything cuz he isn’t at all. I just grow tired of people the more time I spend with them. It happened with Kyle at the very beginning. Even as just friends, seeing him everywhere I went was just too much. Like I could never get away from him and that led to a lot of our fights. That also happened with Carter. And Kenny. And Luis.

Wow haha. That says quite a lot.

Jen is getting a new car tomorrow! Well, sorta new. It’s new for her. I dunno what it is and honestly I don’t really want to know. She has the same taste in cars as Luis which no offense to Jen, but is horrible lol but she’s more practical and she gets what she can afford and that still looks nice so I’m happy about that. I’m sure she’ll love her car no matter hat it is though. Unless it’s like. A really girly car which in that case I think she’d kill herself. It’s about time one of us got a new car anyway

Diego supposedly went to NYC which kind of upsets me because all the times the rest of us tried to plan it, he was kind of the debbie downer of it all and it always resulted in us just not going. Well, one of the reasons. I’ve decided that once I get my license back I’ll just go to NYC myself on a random day and whoever wants to come can come and thats it.

Speaking of! Turns out that our lawyer can wipe both the speeding ticket and the whole license thing away ^-^! Fantastical news, isn’t it! And on a random note… Fantastical is an actual word? It’s not showing up with a red line under it saying the spelling is wrong. Huh. News to me.

More randomness! I added more widgets to my Dashboard. One of them is a movie tickets thing. I opened it up to Twilight. So excited it comes out on friday~~~  I also added a world time map. I have London, Seoul, Tokyo and… apparently San Francisco in there. It’s 12:41am in london o_o;;; and also its Tuesday there. lol.

Well. I thought it was cool. >_>;

[249] It’s Saturday, right? Totally didn’t know

u_u; I’ve been so bored the passed couple days. I actually resorted to playing the Sims 2 last night and continued playing until like 5. Those people are so hard to please… I’d play ToA but I completely forgot what to do in there… and Im not motivated to play an rpg. Althoughhh I really do want to try the new tales game. Its the sequel  to Tales of Symphonia. Looks good

Tomorrow Mom is bringing home a 360 for me. Wasn’t really planning on that… but okay. I wonder if she’ll pick up a game as well… which also wasn’t planned that way. I was going to get Mirror’s Edge along with the 360 it who knows maybe she’ll actually take me with her.

My mom and two of her sisters… and her mother were over the other day. I’m not a fan of family coming over, it’s just awkward and they speak to me in spanish but I talk back in English and I don’t even know if they understand me or pretend to understand. Apparently the two aunts that were there… who I don’t even know the names to, to be honest (I have far too many to remember, I haven’t seen them in over 10 years and also I haven’t met them all.) told me that they were twins. It was weird to me cuz they looked nothing alike… but they were apparently and then Mom decides to tell me that Twins run in the family! My Grandmother had two sets of twins and so did her sister but 1 died at birth or something. So it’s likely that my sister or I will have twins… my sister has had 3 children so far and none have been twins so it’s most likely going to be me, if ‘m understanding this correctly, and really that terrifies me! I don’t like kids in the first place and to think of me having one… and then possibly two at once! u_u;

Stapleford called me last night asking me if I still wanted to take pictures for his band. He said they wanted a grungy sort of look, tasteful slutty outfits (oxymoron hah), Pat will do body art on me or something and no fat chicks. Why they asked me to do this then I have no idea. lol. Jk jk. But anyways, I started getting shy about it. They’re super serious about it and when I told Stapleford that I didn’t really know many girls he said I didn’t need any friends to do it. Just me and possibly Pat’s girlfriend… it seems cool but taking pictures or having people take pictures of me is so embarrassing… but I’m sure it could be fun. I just don’t think I could have Staleford watching me in the process. Maybe I can get Jose to take the pictures? He did after take photography in tunxis and they wee… really good pictures. He also wanted me to model for him but I think that’s because he liked me… whatever. I’ll have to talk to both guys about it.

He sounds so cute on the phone… but anyways, I wanna hang out with Stapleford again u_u hopefully he won’t get all sketch on me and like disappear for two months and be like ‘I don’t want to get close to anybody right now, it’s too soon for me‘ crap.

Haven’t talked to Steve but that’s not unusual and I don’t mind. Though I think he’s a bit upset at me for the last time we hung out cuz I wouldn’t kiss him and stuff. Oh well~ if he really likes me he’ll get over it.

Hm.. I think Ill clean my room… dammit, that means I’m extremely bored T_T! it sucks not having a license…