[277] via cellphone!

I’m actually updating on my cellphone which I find a little bit funny… But anyways!

The same day I came home from the floorset, which was Monday, I had work at 330-730 with an on-call to 9… Yeah, ended up getting out at 10!… Wasn’t too bad though. While I was on my break around 730, Steve actually stopped by to see me. He said hed give me a ride home after work and we could hang out.

So we did. Lauren was going to join us, along with ed but it didn’t happen. So Steve and I went to tisane, got some food then hung out at my house. He was playing geometry wars^2 while I showered but when I came out he stopped. Maybe he didn’t want to embarrass himself in front of me :p

Anyways. He was acting a bit strange…he was his usual self at first; being a perv and such. But then he got really sweet and affectionate. He actually cuddled me and said he could stay with me like that all night…he then asked if I needed a ride to work the next day and I said not to worry about it. I was completely oblivious to the fact that he was trying to sleep over.

Then when we were just chillin on the couch, he kissed me, and it was different. There was oasion in it of course, but still not the same. Like he waa trying to tell me more with that kiss… But of course he wouldn’t say anything about it. After that he left and said he may give me a call on new years eve if I’m free.

Next day, Tuesday, I had work at 1215 – 415. Thank god I didn’t have an on-call! It was a rather uneventful day though. I went to work, went to my parents house, hung out with mom a bit and was home by like 7.
At 830, Peter called me! It turns out we have much more in common than I thought. He even grew up in Manchester like I did, so when he mentioned a few of the stories or rumors from there, he was really happy that I knew about em all.

He also knows Steve. They had a class together at central. But that’s not really important Lol

Peter invited me to his house party for new years… Which is today. Its great and I really want to see him and hang out… But the weather doesn’t seem to want to let it happen… Rawr. We shall see!

Oh, and apparently Amanda thinks that the entries about my friend issues were all about her… Haha… No. They weren’t at all. Why would I get that upset simply because she doesn’t like me? That’s just retarded.

Anyways. Time to clean up the apt… I’ve been lazy today and all I did was talk to Diego on aim while laying in bed. Oh! Speaking of which, mom finally called in for internet at the apartment. Should be getting the setup stuff in the mail soon. Until then, ill have to keep using my cellphone… I still hate this blackberry pearl though.

[276] Oh those floorsets

Did I mention in my previous post that I had work at 6pm yesterday(Sunday)?

Yeah…I JUST got home from work. 12 hour shift. Ridiculous. u_u;; and I have work again today at 3:45. Luckily,it’s only until7:45with an on-all to 9… depending on how busy weget, I may only be there until 7:45 andthen I can hang out with Steve and possibly draghim to see Twilight…

hopefully my liense will come in today…*oh happy day*

Its 7:26,Ive been working all night and Im not the least bit tired. I should be getting sleep but its bright out… and since I’m at my Dad’s, that means Ihave to sleep in my old roomwhichhas… no shades… and newly painted white walls, which faces directly where the sunrises. If you haven’t caught on yet; it means my room is extremley blinding in the morning.

theres plenty to write about regarding the floorset but that will  comelater on today. Toodles.

[275] Im incapable of thinking of a better fitting title

Sorry Amanda but your comment about me having to let people in for them to care, doesnt really mean anything coming from you seeing as… well, you know absolutely nothing about how I am with my actual friends.

Anyhow. It’s so nice out today!

I have a lot to update on but I actually forgot a lot of it >_o;;Friday night I went to Tisane and mingled. It was so much fun. I figured going to the bar alone would be kind of pathetic but as it turns out it works out quite well (it also helps that Mike texted me and said that its sad when an ugly chick is at the bar by herself but Im hot.apparently. lol. <3 Mike); I got 6 free shots and a free beer from the bartender, Pete, himself. I also got his number and he drove me to my apartment and stuff. Hes pretty awesome gonna hang out with him soon.

Saturday, which was…last night… Steve called me and asked me if I was free monday. I said Id have to check and he has band practice but hopefully we can hang out that day. Couple hours later he calls me back while hes at work and hes like “I get otu kind of late but if youre up then, you wanna catch the last call at Tisane?” so around 1 I go to Tisane, we have a drink then head back to my place. We watched Blood Diamond… which I will never see again because its just so very sad. And we played mirror’s edge and geometry wars. Quite funny watching him play. I think he has it in  his head that he can come over anytime he wants to and play my 360. Which is true, he can.It’d be nice to have a friend come by every once in a while. Or often. Or whenever. lol. I just hope he doesnt end up like… pretty much living there with me. And that things dont get serious, cuz as much as i like hanging out with Steve I dont really think I have deeper feelings… for him. Yeah. But hell last night was fun.

Im on my Dad’s computer right now and its pissing me the hell off… this keyboard is a piece. u_u

I have work today at 6-2am.. Floorset D:! Mrah! Oh! And Im getting my license back like. Monday or Tuesday. This whole… thing… happened that got me really pissed at my Dad… it turns out that as soon as I took the class,I could have gotten my license back the same week. I didnt have to wait forany letter… I just had to send in themoney and they would send me the license. This whole time my Dad has been telling me to wait it out, andhe said he knows how it goes, and that he talked to our lawyer and the lawyer said the same thing… Well it turns out that my Dad was wrong, and he never did talkto our lawyer about it afterwards. So Ive been waiting for like a month for nothing. Awesome, huh? Yeah…its okay though. Im over it now.

I talked to Kyle and he apparently still likesme and isnt too keen ont he fact of us being friends. He doesnt really want to. He wants more than that, still. Which I don’t really get but at the same time I do… but I dunno where this is gonna go. If we do talk we do have some rules… actually,just rules for me which is… I cant talk about anyguys to him. At all. Even if its just a friend cuz he gets jealous… O_o;; just a tad silly.

Time to do laundry…

[274]

There is so much that I want to just… cry and rant about. but really there is no point, cuz who really gives a damn? Nobody, right?

 So forget it.

Im done with everyone. Im not talking to anymore of these people. I dont have friends. Plain and simple. I dont have anyone that actually cares about me and Im tired of putting so much effort into relationships and friendships. Im done. Thats a wrap. Over.

 

Bye.

[273] Don’t stop the beat

It’s 3:26 in the morning and I’m still up, and Im downloading trance and techno music. Thats not good… not at all. Why. you wonder?

Because it wakes me up a lot and makes me wan to dance. Go to a club. Get sweaty and be hit on by disgusting guidos and tuesdays and tools (those are all the same thing! Ah ha). Drink. Party. Yeah. This is when I wish I had my license, and that it weren’t ungodly crappy outside cuz I would just take a drive, clear my mind and dance and sing in the car with techno blasting through my awesome speakers.

Wow, really? For a second wordpress told me that Techno was spelled incorrectly. Still doing it. Thats just silly.

I’ve mostly been downloading 4 Strings and Lasgo. Some songs I already have but am getting other remixes/versions of em… still awesome. Other songs are ones Ive been looking everywhere for a long period of time and somehow I managed to find them in like 5 minutes… what the christ? I can’t find one song though… and that’s Treasure Box by 4 Strings. Of course, I can just buy it off iTunes but what’s the fun in legally purchasing music? I’ll tell you what; there isn’t any. Yeah, keep that in mind next time youre being a good little boy or girl and buying music on iTunes. It makes you uncool. You don’t want that, now do you~

I kid, I kid. I really don’t have anything at all to update on. I just want to do something other than… sit here  trying to find something decent on tv to watch and failing. 

Hm… today was just plain old boring. I felt uncomfortable and awkward in this house which is probably why I haven’t gone to bed yet, despite being tired. I tried out the new bath tub though and it wasnt so bad. It just got really hot really fast and I put a little too much bubble bath… thingy… I was surrounded by bubbles indefinitely. Pretty funny. Once I got out, like 5 minutes later the shower started making like a fan… wind blowing.. sound. Apparently, it fricken cleans itself! Coolio.

Hmm… Luis is still lying to Jessica. And to think he loves her, right? What a pig. Least I told her the truth. Mom got upset though. She knows Ive been upset about this whole Luis thing and she hates seeing me ‘like this again’ and she told me that the only reason she’s nice to him when he’s around is for my sake but otherwise she could care less for him. She also said that he better not call me anymore, or he’ll call the cops. Which, I think is pretty funny. What would she tell them? that he’s calling his ex girlfriend and she cries about it? Yeah. Okay Mom. I love you but that’s just silly.

I also realized today that the only one saying I have feelings for Luis still, is Luis himself. Meh. Whatever. He’s getting his just desserts.

On a random (really random) note… I was watching, I think it was Cribs, and they showed Rod Stewarts daughter who’s name escapes me, obviously, and she showed the cars as they always do… and there was a Lamborghini parked outside the garage. It was a Murcielago. And when I looked at it I was like “Hey wait… that means.. BAT!” so I sat there and I was like how the hell did I not realize this before? And I realized it’s because of how everyone actually says Murcielago. All American. So it doesn’t even sound spanish, like it’s supposed to (or Italian I guess. I dont know what the italian word for bat is) so I had no idea until I actually saw it written. So yes. Lamborghini Murcielago means Lamborghini bat. Take that in. Chew on it. Its good for you.

And also did you know that Shrimp Scampi.. is actually Shrimp Shrimp? Scampi means Shrimp. Or so Ive been told. So it’s Shrimp Shrimp. Or Scampi Scampi. Haha… ohh I’m a silly bitch.

I should go to bed… @_@;

 

**Look at that! I started this entry at 3:26 and it was published at 3:50. I took quite long, didnt I :O! Not really. God im tired.**

[272] Frozen

u_u Im back at the house, though not by choice. Mom kept calling me this morning to check up on me, to see if i needed anything, if i wanted my Dad to bring Ninny over to keep me company, if I had enough food, if I was bored or depressed or feeling okay… and every time she’d ask me if I’d prefer to come to the house and stay there for the night.

I said no every time, that I was fine, that I didnt need anything… but it clearly didn’t stop her from calling again and asking. Eventually I just gave up and told her I’d go. At 1 my Dad came to pick my up with my Aunt and I packed up my mac and 360 and we left. It had just started snowing in West Hartford as we left, and it had already begun a while earlier in Farmington… the roads were crappy, to say the least. I’m surprised at how terrible they got so fast though. 

Dad and I have come to the conclusion that my Mother’s car is completely unfit to be driven in this kind of weather. It was sliding all over the place, it was just plain awful. 

When I got to the house Mom was making soup and I told her about her car. I really dont want her driving that thing… my Sentra does better in the snow than that thing!

Not much has gone on while Ive been here. Ive more or less just been roaming the house. What was my bedroom is completely empty. All that is in here is a bed without any sheets and my dresser… which is completely empty. The walls are bare, the closet is empty. It’s like when we first moved into the house. All my things are in boxes and hangers in the garage… even the TV wasn’t in here. The cable was put away too. Dad painted the walls all white… my one green wall is gone, and the blinds were changed. It’s like I was never here. So needless to say Im rather uncomfortable.

I set up my mac and Mom put the TV in my room. My ‘purse’ and coat are on the bed… and Im just sitting here like an outsider. I want to go… home. To the apartment. This is just too strange. But at least with everything in boxes, it makes t easier to take it to the apartment…

The snow is beautiful outside. My Aunt went to the backyard to have her picture taken while it was still… snowing heavily so the snow in the back is no longer virgin-snow~ :/ ah well.

So this whole Wolf thing has gotten to my head a bit. I’ve been having more dreams about wolves and I don’t really think they mean anything, I just think I really want to have something to do with wolves o_o; Last night I came up with the idea of possibly volunteering at a place that has wolves… like a sanctuary or just a center for wildlife and wolves… but for the life of me I don’t think there are any wolves in CT much less a center for caring for them. I tried looking online but of course, I didnt find crap and I keep getting things like Wolf Skin Care or Wolfe Day Care centers… or places in like… Minnesota or something. T_T I wanna work with wolves! 

Soo yeah. Thats pretty much it… u_u I so dont want to be here…

[271] COOKIES!!!!

I have no cookies… So sad.

 

I already updated earlier this morning, didnt I? I believe I did.

But anyways, Dad picked me up and it wasnt as awkward as I thought it would be. He talked to me just fine~ on the way there he told me Mom went to NY to pick up myaunt at the airport. She has left around 10 and still wasnt there at 4… she got lost u_u;;; She didnt get back home until like…. 9:30-10pm O_o;;; crazy. She called me and asked why I didnt just have Dad drive me to the house and she’d bring me home earlier… I didnt know what time shed actually be home and by then Im pretty sure she would have complained about being tired and not drove me home…

Tomorrow she’s bringing me my cat, Ninny… if the weather allows it, that is. Supposedly we’re supposed to get like what… 6-9” of snow~? And then its supposed to snow again on Saturday or Sunday or something. Im not looking forward to this. I’m not a fan of snow at all… I mean when its actually snowing I love it because its almost literally dead quiet and its peaceful (does that sound morbid?) but aside from that… the cold and snow is just nooot my thing.

Work was pretty awesome~! I need to work on getting credit though… for some reason I have a hard time bringing up the Angels Card to people and getting them to sign up… but anyways. It was really busy today and a lot of guys/men came in today. Some of them were really easy to work with while others were just… kind of rude. Actually only one was rude and I was the lucky one that had to deal with him. He wanted the Miracle Bra in another color and a matching thong to go with it for his wife. So I try to help him find a bra with the matching panty but unfortunately we didnt have all of the panties in the size he needed and when I tried to suggest other ones hes just like… No. So then I went back, chose another color bra and he seemed okay with that. Then he asked about pajamas and said he saw an ad on the tv about a Cashmere pj set or whatever and was wondering if we had that. I told him no, but that we had other  pj sets, so I started pointing them out and hes like “I said cashmere”… yeah asshole I heard you, and I told you we dont have that. Christ. u_u; thankfully he just got the bra and panty and left. Jerk.

But the other guys that showed up definitely made up for it. When men walk in there it’s so fun. Theyre so easy to convince to get things for and really they just want to please theyre significant others. Its adorable when they get all shy and ask what size you are… of course, its merely for reference. Katherine is the universal reference though apparently. Quite often guys say “Oh shes kind of like her.”. But anyways,  a pair of men walked in and came to me right away and they were so nice! They were hilarious too. He wanted to get his wife something really nice but that she could wear everyday, and that he could enjoy as well. His friend was very helpful too but it was a little strange His friend seemed to compliment the wife quite a bit… but in the end it all worked out really well ^-^ he got her the Miracle Bra with matching garter, 3 panties, a shirt and a pair of pajama pants… oh, and stockings too. He asked me if we get commission so I could ring him out but unfortunately we don’t… but at the register he told them I helped them out wonderfully <3 he made everyone laugh though. Those guys were great.

Oh! And lets not forget the really, really, really hot guy that came in… it’s so fricken upsetting when guys come in there sometimes. You know damn well theyr’e always taken! But this guy…. h’oh man. He was like the older, white version of Taylor Lautner. He was just delicious. u_u; Thats the only thing I dislike about working at Vicky’s… *sigh*

Thats really all I have to update on O_o; Ive been waiting for like 3 hours for my browser to start working just so I could update this thing… Mom called me like 3 times. She’s been calling me a lot more to check on me and make sure I’m not getting depressed or lonely. It’s really nice and it actually does help a lot. The Christmas tree helps a lot too. I don’t know what it is but whenever I have the lights on it just cheers me up so much. I can sit here and stare at it for like an hour and I’l enjoy every minute of it. It keeps my mindn completely thought-free!

I’m actually getting a lot better at not thinking… I’ve found myself with an empty head and I’m like “Whoa Im really not thinking of anything! This is fantastic!” which it really is. Ask anyone that knows me, they’ll know how much thinking troubles me. BUt yeah.

Another thing, work related sorta… Kaitlin and Lindsey want to hang outttt and I do toooo and Lauren should come cuz we love her~ <3 oh, and Katya! I think we get along with each other the most out of everyone in there. I dunno why… theyre just really cool people. Lindsey said she’d come over my apt. whenever I wanted her to. It old her she could come whenever she wants, and they all can actually. They don’t even have to ask just… tell me theyre comin over and it’ll be set. Plus Tisane is right down the street so we could go to the bar whenever. And if we don’t wanna drive… then they can come here and sober up or whatever. So it’s awesomness. We all need to see Twilight again, too… 

I feel so bad! I havent gotten any christmas shopping done because I havent had any transportation whatsoever… T_T I gotta get Lauren something! She is by far the most important person on my list for various reasons. She’s like a sister to me <3 Im also kinda poor too… which is really weird. I got my bank statement today and I didnt see all the checks that were supposed to be deposited into it… for work I have direct deposit and Im starting to wonder if maybe I didn’t do it right… but when I check on my work info on the site, it does show my bank account and everything… maybe Im just being stupid. I feel like I should have more money in there though… and I dunno when our next pay is coming in Probably next week~

But yeah… maybe Lauren and others on my list won’t mind getting my gift… after christmas… aka whenever I get my license back… stupid dmv needs to get a move on with that shit.

jesus christ. I just checked my schedule for next week and apparently I’m working the Tuesday Floorset which is 9pm to 3am. What the christ?! We’re not robots! What on earth could we possibly be doing that would take us until 3am?! I just hope I have my license back by then… otherwise how in hell will I have a ride home… goddammit they know I dont have my license… T_T Im upset now~