[310] This candy got you sprung

Okay! I have work at 5 and I gotta be outta here by 4:30. It’s just a floorset so its not like I have to dress nice for work tonight but still u_u shower and what not.

But anyways! 

This weekend has been pretty awesome <3 though Im not huge on this heat… especially at night. I’m more of a mid 70s not fricken 80s. Im rambling…

Friday I went to the bar with Lauren, Edward and Kyle. He has just gotten off work and there was this thing one of his friends that works there was doing $20 for all you can eat wings and beer. Pretty awesome. But we didnt do that. We just sat at the bar and watched the Yanks vs Sox game. Had some wings, some beer, and lots of drinks u_u couple shots too <3 I was pretty much drinking on an empty stomach. I mean I had wings but I split them with Lauren so it wasnt much. After that, whiskey sours, martinis, shots, amaretto sours… did I mention beer? Played some pool too. I’m really bad at it but Kyle thinks Im getting better apparently. *shrugs* I didnt see it.

Kyle was pretty drink when we got there. Well.. more like buzzin…hed been drinking since 7 and the rest of us got there at 9ish. I’m not big on PDA at all, I hate it in fact bu that night I couldn’t help it. I was really ‘affectionate” with Kyle so we kissed and whatever every once in a while. Just  a quick one. And across the bar there was this one girl that kept glaring at me hardcore! Im like what the hell is her problem! And thankfully I wasnt just akin shit up. Lauren and Ed saw it too. So I tell Kyle and he looks over and hes like “Oh, thats Shannon. She works here.” so apparently, if shes glaring that bad at me, she must like Kyle, and he did confirm that some of the girls there did have an interest in him but he doesnt really notice much. I thought it was kinda funny.

We were there until like… 1 actually. Long time. Lauren and Edward left before us. We were there till last call lol after that I drove us home. The entire time though I was texting Jon. I was supposed to go to Uconn with him that day but I didnt know that I had already promised to hang out with Lauren u_u; so I couldnt go. he ended up not going too. Instead he went to a party in Waterbury. he invited me to it but there was no way in hell I was driving that far… even though he was 10 minutes away. He was so worried about me! Jon is such a sweetheart. He offered to pick me up and take me wherever I wanted to go~ 

So went over Kyles and right away like. We did our thing. By 300am we were completely spent and its the earliest we’ve ever gone to bed. Hell of a fantastic night though.

Next day, Saturday, Kyle and I sleep in as much as possible but he has work at 7 and needs to do some things. And since I drove, he doesnt have his car so I had to get up too u_u so we went to the bank, went ot game crazy and bought a few games. I have Modern Warfare 2 on pre-order <3 Kyle bought Dead Space Last Remnant, a new controller and a charger for them. I bought Infinite Undiscovery~ we’re gonna switch once we finish em.

Theennn we went and got some BK, and sat in Ritas parking lot eating till we were done and then got some ice cream! Strawberry Custard with Watermelon italian Ice He got a misto with like.. vanilla, mango and blueberry whatever. And the crazy thing about it was that inside the italian ice.. were chunks of fruit to the corresponding flavor. So I had watermelon and he had blueberries in his. Pretty awesome.

After that we hung out in his bedroom for a bit. He played Dead Space.. its the fucking freakiest game I’ve seen so far O_o; well not really I dont think but it was really scary u_u;; I cant really explain it. Just weird monster human things popping out of vents and the only way to kill them is to dismember them Shooting them in the head… doesnt work.

He had to go to work, so I departed. I was supposed to hang out with Jon that night too but he got off of work at 9:30 and by then it was just kinda late to get together and do anything and Jen had work the next morning mad early so we just chilled on xbox playing our own individual little games lol I was on xbox till like… 3:30am just talking to people. after that I went to Kyle’s again.

And that brings me to today! He had work at 12, I went to my Dad’s house and visited for a bit. Came home, ate and now I have to get ready for work at 5 u_u another floorset.

Ugh Im boiling! I gotta set up my ac asap.

Oh and the title is from a song i heard on the radio while I was at Rita’s with Kyle. Its Flo Rida – Sugar featuring some chick whos name I cant remember. Google it.

[309] “I want a shirt that says I love boobs”

Clicky^^^

Uhm… I know youre email address Luis… and seeing as one of the referring links to my blog is from adlers facebook.. youre also talking about me to your friends too. Having fun? I told you the other day that the only reason I write about you in here so that you get pissed off enough to leave me alone. You dont want your business in here, then stop coming to me. Simple as that. And since me telling you to leave you alone doesnt work, and I clearly dont have the “strength” or whatever you want to call it, to avoid you entirely, making you hate me is the best I can do. I can live with that. I WANT you to hate me, not just sometimes, but all the time.

And what on earth would i have to lie about? I dont make up stories, THATS a waste of time. Someone needs to get their facts straightened out before they start talkin crap, and learn to read.

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This weekend has turned out so wonderful <3 And yes as the title of this entry says, I want a shirt that says I love Boobs Although Im not the one that said that, Lauren did. But it seems like it would be a pretty awesome shirt. I kinda want one too :3 So much went on and this weekend is just going to continue. So Im actually going to update it at another time~!

[308] Bullshit Ensues

So once again, I’m accused of something by Luis that I actually didn’t even do. He said I was withholding his keys in my apartment and threatened to call the police on me for keeping something of his. This was of course after I told him that I hadn’t seen the keys, after he had decided to spam me through aim on an sn I don’t have blocked, while I was at work.

He automatically assumed that I would drive all the way to torrington just to give him back his keys, and then he said he would pay me for it… really? Like the last 3 or 4 times you’ve offered to give me money for driving or buying you food and STILL haven’t gotten money for? Ok. Not to mention the $900 he owes my mother for keeping him out of kail that I’ve already mentioned. Its been about 3 months now.

So I said I would drop it off at his parents house and he can get a ride from his beloved 15 year old cunt that hes been getting his dick wet with. I mean if shes so special she surely can give him a ride, right? But I guess not.

He also had the nerve to call me a liar because I wrote in here about him. hes calling ME out on lying? Why should I be honest and loyal to someone that’s been fake with me since the beginning and finds it impossible to be honest with anyone about anything?

And he also said “If you’re mad about the other day, I everything I said to you I meant. I would never take any of it back.” and I really had no idea what he was referring to. Is it the part where Im a hypocrite and unfair, and blow things out of proportion and get upset for no reason despite being yelled at at 5 in the morning? Or was it the whole spiel about him still loving me before he tried to have sex with me?

Gee I dunno.

Either way. I did find his keys, under my black clothes in the living room chair. Way to go. Dropped them off at his parents house. Now its his problem as to how to get the keys. 

If he had actually lost them, no, I wouldnt give a fuck. And I told him that. Its not my problem. And I dont care how ‘important’ it is for him to have them cuz hes not doing anything worthwhile by driving a car with no insurance. Does he have a job? No. All he does with that car, is drive to girl’s houses to fuck them. Real important huh?  Get your fucking life together. Yeah, i dont pay for my apartment and I dont pay for my car. But guess what? You dont pay for your shit either. Yeah. I was told otherwise that you dont pay for hit and I know you dont pay for the car. You dont have bills that YOU pay for. You get unemployment checks. I pay for my food my gas my games my expenses my credit cards and my phone. I think Im a bit ahead of you. Oh and how do I pay for this? I have a fucking job.

I love that he threatened to call the police on me. But uhm, whats this? You havent had insurance on your car for like what.. 6 months and youve been driving around in it everywhere? Lets see what goes down.

I love that he calls me immature for not wanting to talk to him, when hes getting mad at me for making a phone call to someone that MATTERS to me, and then gets out his cell phone and starts texting at 4am just to fucking spite me. yeah. Im childish.

So fricken stupid.

But on to nicer things.

I think I already mentioned the song Jon linked me and Jen to… another song that I have been introduced to is “Over Me” by Veer Union. Devin went to the Hinder concert the other day and I guess Veer Union was opening for them. Devi had me download that song and its really fucking good. Kinda depressing. But its really nice~ I think Jen would like it very much. Soooo Im gonna link it! 

Veer Union – Over Me

Im visiting him this summer <3 so excited. Hes gonna teach me to play guitar better o_o and drive standard better. 

Next week Im going to NYC <3 Tomorrow Im going to UConn <3 And I think Saturday Im going to the club with Diana <3<3<3 And theres some day Im supposed to go to Funnybone with Lauren and Ed I just dont remember when.

Im getting such a nic check this week and two checks from taxes which I dont really get why but whatever ill fricken take it :O Back to CoD!

[307] IVE FUCKEN HAD IT

I am so fucking tired of Luis and his bullshit and games. I dont understand why I keep giving him chances and why I keep tryign so hard to “salvage our friendship” when hes just a terrible human fucking being.

Have fun wuth your little fucking 15 year old pussy. Leave me out of your fucking life. Im done with you. Stop telling me you love me, stop telling me you miss me. I dont fucking care anymore. Youre worthless.

Oh, and start paying back my mom the $900 for keeping your loser ass, that clearly is going nowhere in life, out of  fucking jail.

 

Oh and theres more. Ill elaborate later when Im not fantasizing of pushing him down a flight of stairs, out a window of a skyscraper, running him over, or shooting him in the face with a fucking gun.

[306] All work and no play

Rawr! So bored at the moment. I was playing CoD but… Jen and I weren’t rockin’ as much as we usualy do so Im takin a break and goin back on once Jon gets back from retrieving his turtle beach O_o;  Dont know what a turtle beach is? Google it.

I’ve had this whole weekend off and it’s so nice. FInally I’ve been able to sleep in, but even so … I haven’t even been sleeping in! I just automatically wake up at 10 or earlier now u_u; 

Starting tuesday I have work everyday again, until Saturday. 27 hours total, but knowing work, I’ll probably make it to 30 or so because they’ll gie me so much work and Ill have customers bugging me that I’ll have to stay later… but its ok… I need to be busy nowadays. Everyone else is either working or has classes that I just have far too much time on my hands outside of work. And this summer! I’m rarely gonna be able to see Kyle… He’s going to be working so much. He applied for a job at like Bristol hospital as an EMT and got hired for it. Went for a physical the other day and they had him do all sorts of physical tests… and he got shots and stuff >_<;; what I don’t understand is that he’s an EMT Firefighter, and this summer hes’ going to be working as an emt at lake compounce… which is a pretty sweet deal. All he has to do is wait around in the park until someone gets hurt lol  he also said he can get me free tickets or whatever so I could visit him whenever I want and have fun too thats rather exciting. But still iuno.

Aside from working as an EMT, on weekends he’s going to be working at Sliders, waiting and barbacking. And hen he’s still a firefighter so he’s going to be out on fire calls quite often since its summer… so… very little of Kyle for me this summer. 

On another note, sorta, I have to… probably move back home. Mom can’t afford to pay for the apartment anymore and she suggested I get a roommate but it’s a one bedroom apt. How could I possibly have a roommate? O_o; I refuse to share a bedroom. WHat if we have someone over for the night u_u;; She told me to talk to Luis about paying her back.. he owes her about $900 and she really needs it… he hasn’t paid her back at all… he’s been wasting his unemployment checks on god knows what, and a brand new cell phone… and although Mom saved his ass, I’m pretty sure he’s never gonna pay her back… which I feel terrible about because it’s mostly my fault. If I had just stayed out of it, Mom wouldn’t have paid for anything…

Speaking of Kyle, the other day… thursday actually, it was the 26th and Kyle texted me saying happy anniversary because its been a year since we’ve met. It was so adorable <3 I love him.

Im really just babbling again u_u; I dont have much to talk about that im allowed to talk about.

Luis and I talked. Says he misses me. Apparently Im a drug to him. Not a fan of that fact. Makes me feel pretty shitty actually. I’m just a piece of as to him and thats awful. Hes like “Why cant we just be like fuck buddies or something?”…. yeah. No. and apparently he loves me? Sure.

I had to get my car fixed again, it’s running a little shaky because I got 2 popped tires in Waterbury u_u;; I went to a party with someone and although I had fun I… fucked up my car cuz apparently it was a drain pipe or something that I ran over. I swear it was a ridiculous pot hole but it was dark so neither one of us could see it but he said he drove by it the next day and saw it was a drain pipe. Rather hilarious. Rather ridiculous. Im convinced that either my sentra is cursed or god has condemned me for being born on April 1st.

 I decided to google some of the guns that were used in CoD: WaW and I realized that I actually really really like them. I wanna try some of them out, and Jon said that his step Dad has his own private shooting range and a diverse collection of guns and we could probably try some out… which is sooo exciting. Id love to do that but I’m also scared to

Hrm. I cant remember what else I wanted to write about… sooo back to CoD!

“You know what really sucks about falling for a guy you know you’re not right for? You fall anyway because you think he might turn out to be different.”

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[304] So eager for eternal damnation

I dont know why, but I love this song. Robert Pattinson’s voice is… different, and it definitely isn’t one that I would normally like. Or at least, not that I would think to enjoy at all… especially since its so hard to understand sometimes because its all kinda. yeah… well… Download the song and you shall see.

Let Me Sign

by: Robert Pattinson

Lyrics:

She was standing there by the broken tree
Her hands were all twisted 
she was pointing at me
I was damned by the light coming 
out of her eyes
She spoke with a voice that 
disrupted the sky
She said ‘ Come on over to the bitter shade,
I will wrap you in my arms and 
you’ll know you’ve been saved’
Let me sign, let me sign,
can’t fight the devil so just let me sign

Its 3:40 in the morning. Im not tired. Im extremely bored. And there isn’t anything I feel like updating on. Ive been in an off mood the passed few days. u_u;