[133] Beautiful Morning

I love that I’ve actually gotten some school work done. It makes me feel really good about myself and the fact that I’m not just sitting here watching tv makes it so much better. I’ve been working on my abstract art a lot lately and I’m kind of getting into it… but at the same time I don’t really know what I’m doing. But what I’ve produced so far seems to be getting good reviews from Mrs. Strauss… although I showed Luis one of them and he said he could tell I rushed it because the lines weren’t as neat or crisp as I usually make them.

I still haven’t finished what I’m working on though and I still have to make a piece with Conte Crayon… I played with it yesterday and it’s exactly what its called: Crayon only not waxy. I don’t like it at all lol granted other students in my class have managed to put a lot of effort (too much, if you ask me) into making smooth lines that don’t look like it’s a crayon’s doing, but I’m not willing to put that much effort into 3 different colors that I don’t even like (Brown, light brown and black… boring much?) that we were required to buy. *sigh* I also have to do something with Ink Washes and honestly I have no idea what I’m doing with that either! I have a little bottle of ink and I missed one class where she explained how to do certain washes and what not… so I’m stumped. I’m not one to use things in excess and I like to conserve whatever it is that I have, especially if it costs a lot (I still have Hello Kitty gum from 4 years ago that I refuse to touch because they aren’t that easy for me to get…) and the Ink wasn’t cheap! And I’m supposed to slather that all up on a piece of paper =_= by the time I finish one piece I’ll have to buy another one and I am not rich people! Speaking of ink, I have to use calligraphy pen’s and what not to ink a piece which… sounds fun at first but once you actually try it, it’s rather  difficult. I have no idea how to control it and every so often I find myself scratching the paper like crazy… rawr. But I’m working so it’s alll good.

Last night Sean texted me and was like “You haven’t been to Cedar in days! Did you make new friends or something?” it was kinda funny and I felt missed so it was nice. It’s true though, I haven’t been to cedar since Saturday and that’s rather unusual. After last week, I just don’t feel like partying! I’d like to hang out but I dunno. We’re all low on money and working on school so I’m not sure if they’d want to hang out as often as I’d want to. But Sean said whenever I’m bored to just contact him and we’d hang out and whatever.

After that, Luis came over again while I was playing WoW with Jen. We basically schooled her a little bit on using a Warlock, It was really fun. And Luis said “Just like the good old days… I’d play WoW and you’d watch.” Of course, he was semi -joking. Those actually were the good days and I didn’t mind watching him play, I actually enjoyed it a lot. And the fact that it was on my account and that it was Jen that we were playing with made it even better. It was nice having him there with me and old habits coming back (some old habits). He asked about me moving in again and I basically told him that I wouldn’t be able to live with him unless we were already dating for the same reasons I’ve been telling him! He doesn’t seem to get it and I really don’t understand why he keeps asking. There’s so much I need to say to him too about that topic but whenever he brings it up for some reason I don’t say any of it :/ It was getting really late and he was getting tired and he ended up sleeping over actually. Although it was different but not really. He didn’t cuddle me as much this time, but that’s probably because my room gets really warm and I’m not a huge fan of cuddling. But this morning he held me really close and it was really nice~ He had work though and I had class so we got up early and did our own thing.

My phone is beginning to be epic fail. Well, not epic. I left it on the charger all night and this morning I took it off and within an hour it was dying… it did the same thing yesterday so I left it on the charger all day and night and still the same thing basically. The battery refuses to charge sufficiently and that’s bad… although I was looking at phones yesterday and I had a few ideas… the thing is, nothing I really want comes in damn red. Every single cell phone I have ever had, has been Red. It’s just my thing! I love Red phones…

First up is the Samsung Instinct. This phone hasn’t been released yet and right now it’s just in Beta. It should be released in June of this year… it’s pretty much an iPhone competitor, from what I’ve read, and it looks rather nice and hopefully it’s smaller than the iPhone. Oh, this is for Sprint btw. Next is the Motorola Z9. Unfortunately… this phone is currently  for AT&T only… :/ Then there’s the Rumor by LG… it’s basically the same as the Envy by the same company but I like this one better. It comes in a much better green color too… then there’s also the Razr2 and the MusiQ by LG as well…The MusiQ though is primarily an mp3 phone and I have my iPod so I don’t really need it at all… plus it’s got ugly keys… The Razr2 is kind of wide and overrated. I think my Mom got it and she didn’t like it because it was so wide, so she returned it. So many phones. None of them come in red! Except for the Blackberry Pearl which looks nice but it’s also too much for a phone alone. And the button are rather small… well, technically the buttons themselves are perfectly fine it’s just that they are divided to fit both the Alphabet and the Numbers so it looks tiny.

Sprint doesn’t have very many interesting phones at all. And come to think of it, verizon or t-mobile…. they don’t have very attractive phones either. I’m not that picky really, I just have a couple criteria: phone must be red and the keys must look nice and the overall performance has to be good. THe main things I need are text messaging and to be able to hear people clearly and maybe a decent camera. Other than that… not much to it. *sigh* I dunno though D: I’m gonna need to get a new phone regardless (I don’t have phone insurance or damage coverage or anything…). I might actually go for the Blackberry Pearls imply because it comes in red lol thats awful…

I’m really hungry so I’m gonna go make myself some Hamburger Helper and then continue working on my Abstract Art for as long as I need to. Mike said he was going to get a tattoo today and I wanted to go with him so I can ask about piercings and such… but I dunno. He might not go and depending on how long my art takes I might not even be able to go because I have class at 5 :/ Rawr~

I should watch some K-Dramas…

[21] College, anyone?

 

 

So, I had an away message this morning that said “if I’m so great, why doesn’t he love me?”. We all know who he is…so Lauren took the liberty to answer the question:
I’m going to explain your question in your away message to you nice and clear..he’s not worthy of loving you. You’re too good for him. He doesn’t realize this outwardly, but deep down he knows that. So, he may in some way still love you, but he doesn’t really know how to love you in the way that a guy that DESERVES you will be able to… or even in a way that you need to be loved. his love was shallow and at times cruel. you deserve a love that’s pure and true.
So, you shouldn’t be thinking to yourself, “If I can’t get HIM to love me, what hope is there for someone else?” Because that’s bullshit. He doesn’t love you the way you need to be loved and never could because HE isn’t as great as you. if I’m not making sense, please let me know. buuut, I love you honey and I promise you will find someone that will worship the ground you walk on
I feel bad, because it really upsets her when I get into moods like that. I can tell she hates it, because she knows I know the answer, but for some reason I still get down. But Im glad she doesn’t really yell at me…she understands fully.

Im not in a bad mood anymore. I had another morning where I woke up smiling, and happy! I hope days like these become more frequent. I mean, its beautiful outside and a nice temperature: not too hot, not too cold. It’s sunny, the sky has pretty puffy white clouds, and since its October the trees just look fantastic. How could you not smile under these sort of conditions?

 

That was by far the gayest paragraph I have ever written…but its ok! So anyway. This morning our driveway was finally finished. We had to get it repaved and such because it was starting to warp over the summer cuz it was just old. For like 4 months we had the gravel crap down and whenever someone came into or left our driveway they would sorta peel out on accident…but its all done now so its awesome. We just can’t use it for 2 weeks…so I have to park on the lawn…which is huge and surrounded by trees. Which means acorns will be falling soon and leaving dents in my car once again…ugh.

 

But on to the purpose of this post! I got a check from Tunxis Community College for $20. I started getting worried because it was a student refund for the application fee that I paid for in august. So I called in to find out what happened and they told me that I had a special waver, so they sent me the money back because I didn’t need to pay for the application fee…so I’m like “So this doesn’t mean I wasn’t accepted, right? Because I still haven’t gotten the acceptance letter so Im starting to get worried.” the lady said “Oh no, you’re in our systems, so you were accepted!”

 

So I’m pretty fucking happy right now. I mean, I was already happy but now I’m like…ecstatic. I got accepted, now I just need to take the placement test this month and apply for financial aid. I’ll start school next spring ^-^ Can life get any better??

 

 

The answer is…Yes. Life can keep getting better and better for me. <3