[318] Over a month and I still dont wanna

—Update.

Yeah. Its been forever and a long time ago I said I would write about whatever it was that was bothering me but since its been so long I have no idea what it was! And I still have plenty to write about. Buuuut I don’t want to. But I will say one thing;

Ive been watching a lot of korean dramas and moves lately and I’ve fallen in love with Boys Over Flowers. Aka Hana Yori Dango.

Yeah. Hana Yori Dango is a japanese manga originally, but the story was so good that it got turned into like 4 live action dramas (japan, taiwan, korea and china). Hows that for success? But yeah I watched it in Korean because… well korean people are hot no matter WHAT and well. I like korean stuff more anyways. I dunno why. but anyways enough about that.

While delivering a student’s dry cleaning, Geum Jan Di saves the life of a student at the most prestigious school in Korea. Her actions soon become public and exposes the bullying within the school. To silence the public’s attention, Jan Di is offered a swimming scholarship to Shinhwa which she declines but her family forces her to attend.

During her first day at Shinhwa, Jan Di learns of the famous F4 and of the other students’ adoration and fixation with the boys in the group. Gu Jun Pyo, Yoon Ji Hoo, So Yi Jung, and Song Woo Bin are the richest and most powerful kids within Shinhwa and Korea. Subsequently, they use their power to terrorize weaker students or those they do not like. Jan Di, instead of being impressed, becomes enraged and fantasizes about confronting Gu Jun Pyo, the leader and initiator of many of the bullying acts. She gains courage to confront him when a friend accidentally spills ice cream on his shoes and he demands the girl lick it off. Jan Di defends her friend and attempts to reason with Jun Pyo’s tyrannical demand. When he refuses to relent, Jan Di turns violent, knocking Jun Pyo to the ground. Engaged by this, Gu Jun Pyo declares war on Jan Di and encourages the other students to bully her. Jan Di, however, is resistant, refusing to apologize to Gu Jun Pyo, and stands by her decision to fight him.

Ironically, Gu Jun Pyo, having never been stood up to, begins to develop feelings for her. He tries unsuccessfully to woo her as she slowly begins to spend more time with Jun Pyo and his friends. Jan Di teaches Jun Pyo that money cannot buy everything and in order to have real friends, he himself must be real or use his heart, but Gu Jun Pyo still does not understand why someone like Jan Di should dislike him. As the story progresses, Jun Pyo falls deeper in love with Jan Di and she learns how to open herself to his love as well.

As love begins to blossom, Jun Pyo’s mother discovers them and deems it unsuitable

Thats the synopsis written in Wiki. There was a little more but its kind of a spoiler and… it was even for me… I’m only like 2 episodes away from the ending. The music is pretty good too. It has music from Tmax and SS501 in it (although that Almost Paradise song is a fucking nightmare cuz it plays at all the wrong parts and its always “ALMOST PAAARADIIISSSEE” and it can get really annoying) also if you hadn’t noticed, Kim Hyun Joong* from SS501 and Kim Joon* from TMax are apart of the F4 in BOF so thats pretty cool.

*^Kim Hyun Joong

^Kim Joon

Cute arent they

Okay Im supposed to be getting ready for a Baby Shower and then work… so… later!

[317] Wonder

Alice: Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?”

Chesire Cat: “That depends a good deal on where you want to get to.”

Alice: I don’t much care where…”

Chesire Cat: “Then it doesnt matter which way you go.”

Alice: “–so long as I get SOMEWHERE.”

Chesire Cat: “Oh, you’re sure to do that, if you only walk long enough.”

 

- From Alice In Wonderland (the book)

 

 

This isnt an official update about anything. I just really like that part in the book. I love how you can take this book in any way you want to. Its rather eye opening.

 

There is an insane amount of things I should update on. But its 3:30 in the morning. I just got home from work not too long ago. I don’t feel like writing. So yeah.

[315] The audacity!

Seriously, why do people feel the need to tell others that they and I have dated at some pont in time? CLEARLY its a fucking le, but why bother? Like I dont understand. And then, when people ask ME about it and I tell the truth, I get bitched out at? I dont fricken get it. But here, Durrett sent me ths on FB randomly today:

Never consider me a friend ever again. i hope you rot in hell after all you’ve done to me. You’ve got no idea what it means to be someone’s friend and no idea what it means to be a decent human being. i’m never defending you ever again, no matter who calls you a slut or a whore or a bitch.

Learn to tell the fucken truth about peeople and you wont get so much shit. And ppl call me a bitch a slut and whore because YOU are TELLING them  fucken cheated on one of the loves of my fucken Life with you! And it NEVER happened! We never even hung out on our own! Seriously yo, people need to grow the fuck up.

[313] Boo hoo

Quit victimizing yourself. No one believes it.

[312] I good you bid evening

u_u Work at 12 to 4 today! Then after that going to my Dad’s. hopefully he has some food there for me to steal… I dont really have much to update about. I’m just super fricken bored.

Last night I hung out with my lovey finally after like… 4 days. He had slept over last week but he had a doctors appointment the next morning for work so he couldn’t stick around… it was short lived. Since I havent had much money at all, I couldnt do much, so we really missed each other. So yesterday we went out to dinner~ we got Sushi <3 and then we went to Rita’s they had Coffee Custard and.. I hate coffee ice cream btu this was soooo good. It was the perfect… blend of coffee and whatever else they put in there. So it wasnt to coffee-ish at all.

After dinner and ice cream we went back to his place and he started playing Gears of War 2. It was pretty cool looking, despite Luis’ criticism of it.. then again he criticizes every game unless hes the one that chose it… but anyways, not important. I kinda liked it but its not my kinda game. I have a huge problem with it being off-centered… over the right shoulder. it’s just weird and awkward to me. 

But I ended up falling asleep! u_u I just couldnt help it. His room is so comfortable~ <3 he continued playing until around 12:30 and I woke up around 11:30 but while he was playing he kept stopping very once in a while and kissed me in my sleep. So cute~~ but I did end up sleeping over anyways though I didnt mean to. But he had work this morning at 8, which is why Im actually awake and updating at the moment instead of sleeping in until 11 and going to work directly afterwards.

Im supposed to be having people over tonight but I actually dont want to. Id rather just go to sliders~ hopefully nobody minds. Its just that my place is a mess and I actually really dont feel… like cleaning.

I’m quite hungry at the moment… but i think Ill save myself the money and buy myself a salad at Cosi for lunch! Im so poor… T_T; I have money in my bank account, finally, but my debit card broke actually so… Ive got $60 in cash and thats just about it. Quite sad… which reminds me I gotta fix the issue with my Capitol One card. Apparently, Im being charged for fees I didnt know I had like that stupid credit report stuff and something else I dont remember. I didnt ask for any of it and I dont get a credit report very often at all so I dont feel like paying monthly for it… I was wondering why I kept paying for my card but it didnt seem to make a damn difference and now I know why. Capitol one sucks ass.

And Im really just rambling…

I <3 Jason Lee and Penélope Cruz is adorable. For the record Im watching Vanilla Sky, thats why I mentioned those two and thats also where the title of this entry comes from.

And Im out!

[306] All work and no play

Rawr! So bored at the moment. I was playing CoD but… Jen and I weren’t rockin’ as much as we usualy do so Im takin a break and goin back on once Jon gets back from retrieving his turtle beach O_o;  Dont know what a turtle beach is? Google it.

I’ve had this whole weekend off and it’s so nice. FInally I’ve been able to sleep in, but even so … I haven’t even been sleeping in! I just automatically wake up at 10 or earlier now u_u; 

Starting tuesday I have work everyday again, until Saturday. 27 hours total, but knowing work, I’ll probably make it to 30 or so because they’ll gie me so much work and Ill have customers bugging me that I’ll have to stay later… but its ok… I need to be busy nowadays. Everyone else is either working or has classes that I just have far too much time on my hands outside of work. And this summer! I’m rarely gonna be able to see Kyle… He’s going to be working so much. He applied for a job at like Bristol hospital as an EMT and got hired for it. Went for a physical the other day and they had him do all sorts of physical tests… and he got shots and stuff >_<;; what I don’t understand is that he’s an EMT Firefighter, and this summer hes’ going to be working as an emt at lake compounce… which is a pretty sweet deal. All he has to do is wait around in the park until someone gets hurt lol  he also said he can get me free tickets or whatever so I could visit him whenever I want and have fun too thats rather exciting. But still iuno.

Aside from working as an EMT, on weekends he’s going to be working at Sliders, waiting and barbacking. And hen he’s still a firefighter so he’s going to be out on fire calls quite often since its summer… so… very little of Kyle for me this summer. 

On another note, sorta, I have to… probably move back home. Mom can’t afford to pay for the apartment anymore and she suggested I get a roommate but it’s a one bedroom apt. How could I possibly have a roommate? O_o; I refuse to share a bedroom. WHat if we have someone over for the night u_u;; She told me to talk to Luis about paying her back.. he owes her about $900 and she really needs it… he hasn’t paid her back at all… he’s been wasting his unemployment checks on god knows what, and a brand new cell phone… and although Mom saved his ass, I’m pretty sure he’s never gonna pay her back… which I feel terrible about because it’s mostly my fault. If I had just stayed out of it, Mom wouldn’t have paid for anything…

Speaking of Kyle, the other day… thursday actually, it was the 26th and Kyle texted me saying happy anniversary because its been a year since we’ve met. It was so adorable <3 I love him.

Im really just babbling again u_u; I dont have much to talk about that im allowed to talk about.

Luis and I talked. Says he misses me. Apparently Im a drug to him. Not a fan of that fact. Makes me feel pretty shitty actually. I’m just a piece of as to him and thats awful. Hes like “Why cant we just be like fuck buddies or something?”…. yeah. No. and apparently he loves me? Sure.

I had to get my car fixed again, it’s running a little shaky because I got 2 popped tires in Waterbury u_u;; I went to a party with someone and although I had fun I… fucked up my car cuz apparently it was a drain pipe or something that I ran over. I swear it was a ridiculous pot hole but it was dark so neither one of us could see it but he said he drove by it the next day and saw it was a drain pipe. Rather hilarious. Rather ridiculous. Im convinced that either my sentra is cursed or god has condemned me for being born on April 1st.

 I decided to google some of the guns that were used in CoD: WaW and I realized that I actually really really like them. I wanna try some of them out, and Jon said that his step Dad has his own private shooting range and a diverse collection of guns and we could probably try some out… which is sooo exciting. Id love to do that but I’m also scared to

Hrm. I cant remember what else I wanted to write about… sooo back to CoD!

“You know what really sucks about falling for a guy you know you’re not right for? You fall anyway because you think he might turn out to be different.”

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