[311] Starbursts are fantastic <3

I’m so happy <3 I can legitimately say that now. I’m still rather low on money but that’ll work itself out soon. Just a little hard work and wiser decisions. So it’s not a big deal.

But everything else in my life is petty fantastic. I mean.. I’m getting a lot of hours at work, and I’m getting a second job. So a lot of my free time will be taken up which I’m perfectly fine with, I like being busy. My social life is just where I want it to be and now that my friends have finally joined me in the legal drinking age, it opens up many more possibilities~! and my dear love life is… fantastic.

Its been like what, 3 weeks since I last updated this thing? 2? I dunno. A lot has happened since then, so much so that I can’t really remember all of it but thats fine.

One night I went to NYC with Jon. That was cool. He took me to Central Park and it was fucking awesome, even though it was raining but whatever. I love NYC regardless of the weather. We tried to find the statue of Balto and Alice in Wonderland but… unfortunately we can’t read maps very well… so that went nowhere u_u; we ate at the Hard Rock Café and it was so cool! Bought a shirt too. we didnt get back to CT until maybe 4:30am so I slept over his apartment, and left the next day around 12 or 1.

Then… work work work… saw the Wolverine movie. I adore Gambit <3 and Ive fallen in love with Hugh Jackman. And, speaking of which, I think Ive got a thing for… older men. Cuz I would love to devour Hugh Jackman and Andy Samberg. Google em if you dunno em Oh! And Ryan Reynolds was in the movie too! THAT was a surprise, and I never realized how attractive he really is.

So apparently theyre making a movie on Deadpool, which is pretty cool too. But didnt he end up disfigured because of his regeneration/healing ability? Iuno. Don’t quite remember. Also, I think there should be a Gambit movie. Kyle agrees, but he doesnt think that the actor who played our dearest Remy (Taylor Kitsch) is a well enough actor to pull a movie where he’s the main feature.I happen to disagree and think they should give him a chance. I mean Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson did great and they were virtually unknown to some extent… but I do look forward to that <3

I hung out with Lauren Ed and Dano that same day that Kyle and I saw wolverine (L, D and E were there too). Dano and I rocked out on Rockband for a while. Also played CoD4. I didnt win but I only lost by a couple of kills each time, and Im surprised at how well I actually did in CoD4. 

Dano has BB guns, and seeing as I have a fascination with Guns now, and I know bbs arent the same thing, but we went out to the front yard and he let me shoot off a couple of his guns and it was just… so much fun… he invited me to a game hes having on Sunday but unfortunately I have to work so I cant go

Hmm. Just this friday, Lauren, Ed, Dano, Dustin, Kyle, Michael and I all went to see Star Trek! I didnt really want to go because I was never much of a trekky but I must say… I fucken loved that movie. After that, we went bowling! I did terrible, like out of the ordinary terrible but it was all good.

After that, I went to kyle’s and he told me that on saturday they were having family over for his sisters (Shelly) 21st birthday and to be wary of the fact that many relatives would be there. He knows I get rather skittish around parents but I decided to take a chance and brave the family the next morning. So I slept over and spent the entire day there even after Kyle left for work. It turns out his family is not only very welcoming but very nice and they seemed to like me very much especially his mother and his mom’s best friend Alicia. They insisted I eat, because theyve never even seen me eat a bite in the entire year that theyve known me. Theyre convinced I simply dont eat! 

I met Kyle’s brother. Hes a little cutie. Hes deaf and he has some other disabilities but I dont know what they are. Hes a sweetheart nonetheless.  I learned how to ’say’ my name in sign language too. They asked me what I liked to do, Kyle said I liked to draw, so they associated drawing and my name with that so its like.. the motion of drawing signifying my name and stuff. Its pretty cool. 

His sister was nice too, so was her best friend Jackie and Shelly’s boyfriend Pete. He just recently bought an xbox and CoD:WaW. Once he found out that I play CoD, we started talking about it and everything. It was really cool. We played Zombies together and it turns out hes incredibly good. He added Kyle and I ton XBL. He plays mostly during the day though so hopefully we can play together at some point.

Kyle left for work around 3:40 and I stuck around till 8pm~ was nice. I love being there. Oh! oh oh oh. His Mom came up to me, we talked a lot actually today, and she came to me at one point and shes like “You wanna know what Kyle told me when he first met you?” so Im like.. all shy about it and fearing for my life. But she was all smiles and told me that he told her I was the perfect girl, that Im his other half and that we have a lot in common… and that Im great in bed. SOOOO… when she says that, I start blushing and when she mentions the sex Im like as red as my complexion could possibly get. u_u; but she said its a good thing and that kyle tells her everything so. not to be surprised. lol.

Havent talked to Luis much. I mean last week he IMed me 5 days in a row right after I got off of work. The second my away message came down on aim he was IMing me saying welcome home and Im like… he fucken stalking me now? So stupid. And then hed s tart talking and Im just like… I dont care… and he clearly doesnt care what I have to say. So if he doesnt care and I dont care, where do we get? Nowhere. But he hasnt IMed me in like 3 days and Im perfectly fine with that.

And Ive changed! Ive stopped thinking about all the negativeness in my life. Im not wondering why Im being used or lied to or played and that stuff only happened when Luis was in my life. I mean when I finally stopped to think about it… I’m the only girlfriend Luis has ever had, that has been faithful to him. And if THAT isn’t good enough for him on top of everything else Ive done for him… then why do I bother? Exactly. I shouldn’t. So, I don’t care if he’s sleeping with a 15 year old girl and lying to half the world about it. I don’t care if he ends up with a gf. As long as he’s out of my life, doing his own thing and pays my mother back… I’m all set.

Besides. I have my baby, and I love him to death <3 I’m definitely in love with him and I cant believe he’s put up with my crap for this long… but it can only get better.

Lets see.. tomorrow I have work.  Another floorset u_u; Oh!

I forgot. Everett slept over sometime last week. It was like a saturday or something. He needed a place to stay and didn’t want to sleep at his parents. He lives in Boston so yeah. He slept over and told me that he broke up with his gf. Whom, may I remind you, was also underage (16 {what is it with guys I know and dating girls that aren’t even of legal age? Is pre-pubescent really that attractive?}). Im not sure why he decided to tell me, and then this was when he wanted to hang out with me and go to dinner with me. I dunno. It was weird. I figured he wanted something ‘else’ with me. But whatever.

But yeah o_o; uhm. iuno what else to talk about. But Lauren, Kyle, Dano and I all got summer bowling passes at the bowling alley so… that means lots of bowling this summer~! <3 I suck but hopefully Ill get better this summer. 

Hm.. yeah.. babbling now… sooo Im out!

[310] This candy got you sprung

Okay! I have work at 5 and I gotta be outta here by 4:30. It’s just a floorset so its not like I have to dress nice for work tonight but still u_u shower and what not.

But anyways! 

This weekend has been pretty awesome <3 though Im not huge on this heat… especially at night. I’m more of a mid 70s not fricken 80s. Im rambling…

Friday I went to the bar with Lauren, Edward and Kyle. He has just gotten off work and there was this thing one of his friends that works there was doing $20 for all you can eat wings and beer. Pretty awesome. But we didnt do that. We just sat at the bar and watched the Yanks vs Sox game. Had some wings, some beer, and lots of drinks u_u couple shots too <3 I was pretty much drinking on an empty stomach. I mean I had wings but I split them with Lauren so it wasnt much. After that, whiskey sours, martinis, shots, amaretto sours… did I mention beer? Played some pool too. I’m really bad at it but Kyle thinks Im getting better apparently. *shrugs* I didnt see it.

Kyle was pretty drink when we got there. Well.. more like buzzin…hed been drinking since 7 and the rest of us got there at 9ish. I’m not big on PDA at all, I hate it in fact bu that night I couldn’t help it. I was really ‘affectionate” with Kyle so we kissed and whatever every once in a while. Just  a quick one. And across the bar there was this one girl that kept glaring at me hardcore! Im like what the hell is her problem! And thankfully I wasnt just akin shit up. Lauren and Ed saw it too. So I tell Kyle and he looks over and hes like “Oh, thats Shannon. She works here.” so apparently, if shes glaring that bad at me, she must like Kyle, and he did confirm that some of the girls there did have an interest in him but he doesnt really notice much. I thought it was kinda funny.

We were there until like… 1 actually. Long time. Lauren and Edward left before us. We were there till last call lol after that I drove us home. The entire time though I was texting Jon. I was supposed to go to Uconn with him that day but I didnt know that I had already promised to hang out with Lauren u_u; so I couldnt go. he ended up not going too. Instead he went to a party in Waterbury. he invited me to it but there was no way in hell I was driving that far… even though he was 10 minutes away. He was so worried about me! Jon is such a sweetheart. He offered to pick me up and take me wherever I wanted to go~ 

So went over Kyles and right away like. We did our thing. By 300am we were completely spent and its the earliest we’ve ever gone to bed. Hell of a fantastic night though.

Next day, Saturday, Kyle and I sleep in as much as possible but he has work at 7 and needs to do some things. And since I drove, he doesnt have his car so I had to get up too u_u so we went to the bank, went ot game crazy and bought a few games. I have Modern Warfare 2 on pre-order <3 Kyle bought Dead Space Last Remnant, a new controller and a charger for them. I bought Infinite Undiscovery~ we’re gonna switch once we finish em.

Theennn we went and got some BK, and sat in Ritas parking lot eating till we were done and then got some ice cream! Strawberry Custard with Watermelon italian Ice He got a misto with like.. vanilla, mango and blueberry whatever. And the crazy thing about it was that inside the italian ice.. were chunks of fruit to the corresponding flavor. So I had watermelon and he had blueberries in his. Pretty awesome.

After that we hung out in his bedroom for a bit. He played Dead Space.. its the fucking freakiest game I’ve seen so far O_o; well not really I dont think but it was really scary u_u;; I cant really explain it. Just weird monster human things popping out of vents and the only way to kill them is to dismember them Shooting them in the head… doesnt work.

He had to go to work, so I departed. I was supposed to hang out with Jon that night too but he got off of work at 9:30 and by then it was just kinda late to get together and do anything and Jen had work the next morning mad early so we just chilled on xbox playing our own individual little games lol I was on xbox till like… 3:30am just talking to people. after that I went to Kyle’s again.

And that brings me to today! He had work at 12, I went to my Dad’s house and visited for a bit. Came home, ate and now I have to get ready for work at 5 u_u another floorset.

Ugh Im boiling! I gotta set up my ac asap.

Oh and the title is from a song i heard on the radio while I was at Rita’s with Kyle. Its Flo Rida – Sugar featuring some chick whos name I cant remember. Google it.

[309] “I want a shirt that says I love boobs”

Clicky^^^

Uhm… I know youre email address Luis… and seeing as one of the referring links to my blog is from adlers facebook.. youre also talking about me to your friends too. Having fun? I told you the other day that the only reason I write about you in here so that you get pissed off enough to leave me alone. You dont want your business in here, then stop coming to me. Simple as that. And since me telling you to leave you alone doesnt work, and I clearly dont have the “strength” or whatever you want to call it, to avoid you entirely, making you hate me is the best I can do. I can live with that. I WANT you to hate me, not just sometimes, but all the time.

And what on earth would i have to lie about? I dont make up stories, THATS a waste of time. Someone needs to get their facts straightened out before they start talkin crap, and learn to read.

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This weekend has turned out so wonderful <3 And yes as the title of this entry says, I want a shirt that says I love Boobs Although Im not the one that said that, Lauren did. But it seems like it would be a pretty awesome shirt. I kinda want one too :3 So much went on and this weekend is just going to continue. So Im actually going to update it at another time~!

[288] Time to realize youre worthwhile

Blaaaaah I’m rather tired, I actually don’t want to update this but since I said I was going to…

I dont wanna go into too much detail about certain events about last night cuz its really not my place to say much of it. But it involves Everett and it actually bugs the hell out of me so much. He does have a girlfriend now but that actuallY i don’t care about. I care about who it is and everything, and then what he had the nerve to say to me after he told me he had a girlfriend which was “I dont know why we didn’t work out. We were extremely close.” thats the short version. Thats just a wtf statement.

After that (theres a hell of a lot more to it but I dont feel like going into what specifically went down. Just know it involved a bowling alley, waiting for an hour and a half, and then promptly leaving once things started actually happening Was nice to see some people though. I miss some of em.). I was going to head over a girlfriends house just to talk and vent about everything thats been bugging me. Everett was one thing, but that was just from that night… most of the things I wanted to talk about were things that were piling up overtime, and pretty much plaguing me and then like… decisions Ive been making and crap. But that went shitty and I changed my mind due to more things I’m not allowed to talk about.

After that I went over Kyle’s house. By this time it was like 3am and he was just getting off of work. I needed the company and I figured… if I cant get love from Everett or someone else…. why not Kyle? I mean he already says he loves me, and hes wanted to spend time with me for a while now…

When I got there I was rather shy and he seemed distant, but he was actually just being respectful. he wasn’t sure what I wanted or what I was expecting so he just took it slow. It was nice though. No expectations, no strings attached… And things happened that I actually wasn’t counting on. Its been about 3 months now and I actually was intimate with Kyle again and I loved it. It was nice engaging in that sort of activity with someone that genuinely cares about and loves you… its about time… 4 times…. and quite a few times he told me he loved me. We talked a lot too about everything and  a lot of things became clear… he lves me, and he sees things in me that I want Luis to see, and he also sees what Luis has seen and regardless he loves me! Its unconditional love, and its everything i’ve ever wanted. I dont have to do anything differently,  dont have to bow down to him and do everything he says, I dont have to fight for his attention and I never feel neglected… its just so surprising to me. I’m not sure why. And when I think about how Kyle loves me and compare to how.. Luis ‘loved’ me, which Im beginning to think he never even did and never will, it just… it blows Luis out of the water. Its pretty much like Kyle is the man of my dreams, the one I should spend my time with and Luis is just a distant nightmarish mistake.

I’m hoping that in time… I’ll fall in love with Kyle. I mean really… its stupid not to. Of course it’ll take time, but I’m sure I’ll get there eventually and I know he’ll still be there for me.

So yeah… I didnt get to bed till like 6:30 and this morning around 12 Kyle and I fooled around again, right before he had to go to work. After that I went to my Dad’s house and picked up my mail~ I bought Cooking Mama: World Kitchen I’m so excited to play it. I got some other junk too, tax stuff and another jury duty letter rescheduling it to september~ Mom showed up about an hour after I got there and like the entire time she was on the phone and whatever friends it is that she dragged along with her to the house kept talking to me.. and they only speak spanish so I couldnt even really talk back to them or have a full conversation… yeaaaah….

Then I got home, finally did some damn dishes and then went to work. I have yet to eat in the passed two days. Kinda lazy. I want a fricken burger. But again, too lazy.

But yeah! I went into work at 4:30 today and I just got out at 1:110am. Floorset. With just me and Jackie, we had to do eeeeverything. And Im exhausted. We got everything done though, so thats great. And I got some hours in too so yay money!  I was gonna go to Kyle’s again tonight… but Im too tired and I need gas and I dont feel like leaving the apartment again. Though I would liek to sleep next to him again… I always sleep so goddamn well next to him. its weird.

But anyway~ yeaaaaah. That is all. u_u

[283] Slip on through

I feel kinda bad cuz my entries lately have been kinda.. blah-ish… I havent gone into detail about anything that Im doing and I just babble, but of course theres reason for that. But I cant go into it… made a promise. And also i know who reads this based on what they search, how they search and when they search for my blog. It’s rather entertaining. I feel like making up information just to piss certain people off but Im not that much of a bitch and I’m not a liar.

There are things that people have talked to me about that sort of make me feel better about the situation I’ve recently put myself in (can’t go into it, sorry but don’t worry its nothing too serious. Nothing dangerous or whatever it is you may be thinking right now O_o;). People have told me, in short, that regardless of what has happened that… I’m still there. I’m still rather important despite what I think or how I feel or how things seem to be playing out… and that maybe things will go back to how they were. ANd when I hear that, it makes me feel so great, like I’m not wasting my time but then of course, I start to think… and I haven’t thought about things seriously in so long. Like I’ve mentioned before, I’ve pretty much trained myself not to think so much because it gets me in trouble, it gets me depressed and I find out things that I don’t want to know… So I started thinking and because I’m naturally pessimistic and ‘realistic’, everything these people have told me, despite their efforts to try and make me feel better or have some sort of change of heart or hope or whatever… it still just comes back to me and it all results in… What they’re saying isn’t true.

Nothing is going to change, it wont go back to how it used to be and I really am just wasting my time and that really hurts especially with how I’ve been behaving and how I’ve felt. I think that I’ve behaved in a manner that says… hey, I’ve made a lot of changes, I’m a better person, I’m not at all who I used to be… but it doesn’t matter. I am just not enough. And that really hurts, it really bothers me but what can I do? 

Theres sooo much more I can say about this but the more I go into it the more I break my promise.

There is also another thing thats been bugging me quite a bit and actually it pisses me off more than anything. This person is not a friend of mine, and I don’t know them personally because I never got the chance to for various reasons. But recent;y I came to learn some things about this person and I just have to say that I am very disappointed and I’m embarrassed because I thought you were a cool person, and I even thought you were so much better than me for certain things. But really.. you’re just a selfish little bitch. I thought you were, on some levels, sort of like me because we seemed to like the same things, and we spoke the same way and we dealt with the same things. I thought you wanted to be my friend because you thought I was cool and I admit that I wanted to be friends with you but I told you we couldn’t unless something in particular left your life, but it turns out that you just wanted to keep your ‘enemy’ closer. You thought I was a threat and you were jealous of something that no longer existed and you made someone hate me because of that. And yet this whole time you were being a skeazy bitch. You were being selfish and telling me to stay away and get over everything already. You dont know what love is. You dont know how relationships work and since you havent gotten hurt, you’re not going to learn anything. But go ahead. Have your fun and be a hypocrite. I feel bad for you and I feel stupid that I thought you were cool, and that I thought you and I had some things in common or that we ere alike. We clearly are nothing alike because I would never, ever, ever fucking do what you did no matter what happens or what someone does to me.

And it just goes to show that I am a good person. A damn good person. And everyone knows it.

Okay! Now that THATS out of the way. What else is there to discuss?…

Oh right! My dear old friends and not so friend. Ryan came to me and asked me fi I was going to this thing on some friday that amanda was having. I laughed and told him Amanda would never invite me if she had a choice and she surely wont now or ever again. And I was right. She didnt. He said he would talk to her and try to get her too and I laughed again and told him that it wouldn’t work, but he tried anyway and surely enough she said No. He was pissed. Jen was pissed. Ximena was upset. DIego was confused. I think its hilarious, I mean I’m upset that she can’t get passed her grudges. I have told everyone I have nothing against her and they know that I dont. The only issue is… all in her head apparently. So pretty much its back to High School where everyone but her hangs out with me at m place without her knowing, or extending an invitation but not expecting her to come at all because its me, and not going to her place to hang out, or hanging out at a neutral area like Jen’s or Ryan’s or Diego and Ximena’s house so we can both be there. I think its completely ridiculous, I don’t want to do that but nothing I do is gonna change anything and everyone else just stopped caring and doesn’t want to deal with the drama and said Hey… she doesnt want to then whatever but we’re not ignoring you just cuz someones gonna throw a hissy fit.

Another thing that I find hilarious… actually it’s two more things, about this situation. Amanda is pissed at me and hates me for something I wrote on my blog and she doesnt like the fact that I wrote my thoughts out about a situation regarding her and a bunch of other crap. I seem to remember a situation where she wrote something about Jen and Joe, and Jen got a bit upset and confronted her about it and her excuse was “Its just a blog, I can write anything in it, Its not a big deal and it doesnt mean anything.”

Uhm. Does anyone see what went on there? Hypocrisy! 

The last thing is that she apparently invited Chris Kuhn, whom she doesnt even really know at all and isnt friends with, to the whole friday thing. He didnt go. We were talking about it, briefly, when Jen and I went over to Eric’s house to play some halo and Rockband. Funny stuff.

On to random boring things. I switched my phone from my Mom’s name, to mine and I was approved for 3 lines with no deposit… so that means my credit, though I dont have much, is pretty awesome! So that makes me happy. Also, my credit card limit was just recently raised from $500 to $1000 and I was late on one payment… so thats awesome sauce as well, so I’ve been buying a lot of stuff lately… >_>;;

Had a meeting at work today and I was just so out of it. Completely anti-social… but apparently in a couple weeks we have a new bra coming out with a ‘removable cookie’… when I heard cookie, and thankfully I wasnt the only one that thought this, but I was thinking of like a sugar cookie or something. Well, the bra doesnt come with edible sugar cookies or whatever. The leaf-shaped padding that you see in bras that are often lost in the washer because we forget to take them out and hand wash them instead (you ladies know what Im talking about) thats called a Cookie! Yeah. Funny stuff.

After the meeting I went to starbucks and ended up getting a free pomegranate tea thing. Awesome! Its so yummi I’m really babbling again… and Im rather bored… and its sunday so there isnt anything to do anyways. Awesome. u_u;

OH! A word of advice: NEVER TAKE SHOTS OF AFTER SHOCK. That shit’s positively atrocious. It tastes like a Fireball and it has these itty bitty crystals inside of it, and if one of those gets in your shot, God help you. It’ll fuck you up and the next day everything is going to taste like a fireball no matter what you do.

[281] The cake isnt a lie :I

I really don’t remember where I left off… hrm. Well! Lots of crap been going on. Well not really but sort of.

Uh. new Years…Did I ever write about that? I dont think so. But Im gonna summarize everything!

Peter invited me to his house party. Lauren and Ed decided to come with. Theydidnt like it so within 5 minutes i was kinda forced to leave and go to Tisane with them and there we metup with Steve and his friends. His friends are cool, total nerds, we talked about WoW. Ed and Steve got along really well, which isn’t a surprise.

Not too long after, I found out Stee wants a relationship with me or something or other and I really dont want one. I just want ot hang out and be friends but that apparently isnt enough for him. Also the fact that I refusedto sleep with himbugged him too cuz hes a horny little bastard. It pissed me off cuz… I understand guys have their needs. Butif you haveany respect for me at all and yourself you wouldn’t tryto push me into itespecially after I explain why I dont want to and that its personal!

But anyways. He overreacted one morning and deleted my numberfrom his phone and his phone frmo mine and then walked out. Havent talked to him since.

Went out with Peter one afternoon. We went for lunch at the Cheesecake Factory and has a really good time. We then went back to my apartment ad proceeded to play Halo 2 and geometry Wars^2. I got owned in Halo 2 but it wasn’t a complete disaster. I didnt just get raped and end up having one kill and a million suicides like Iused to… I actuallywould get really close tohis score. A couple of times I got half his kills and then another time I was just a few under. So yeah!Way better thanI used to be. What I really enjoyed was that we just hung out. It wasn’t like a date.

He likes when I visit him at work from time to time, and he actually texts me randomly sometimes. The dayI went to court he actually texted me at like 9am wishing me good luck and all. So hes sweet. Sometime this week we’re gonna go to Manchester together and revisit all the places we grew up in in that town.

Ron called me out of nowherea couple nights ago. I met Ron in Aruba when I was 17 and we  hit it off really well. He was very sweet and a gentleman with me. He didn’t try anything sexual or anything but we still got really really close. Unfortunately, he was 21 and lied in NY and was in college and we were on two seperate paths so it couldnt work out back then. So now he wants to hang out and stuff and he misses me so that should be fun. Iknow he wont try anything with me either because he’s really respectful so Im looking forward to reconnecting withan old friend.

Oh! On the 9th I went to court for my speeding ticket andI was there for maybe 10 minutes and already they dropped the charges so its completely off my record. <3

I went out to dinner with Kyle last night. It was a little awkard. There are some things that went down that I’m not going to let go so easily. Uh… some things were said thatIm surprised to hear and Im actually not going to write about it in here. If I do it’ll be priate but just know that it actually isn’tsuch a bad thing. Its just a huge surprise.

Luis did call me this morning but it was completely  by accident. He called back to apollogize for waking me up at 6am with a phone call that wasnt even supposed to be for me. That was that. No big deal. At first I didnt even know it was him cuz I deleted his number quite some time ago.

Uh~~ I had Diego, Jen and Ryan over one night and David R. and his girlfriend (becky?) joined us. It was a lot of fun.I would love to do it again soon~ and now that I have my license back (it came back last tuesday!) I can actually go out and do stuff, which I have been and its great.

Ive been practicing guitar nad getting kinda better. Some things I’m stillunsure of… but Jenis helping. The rest is really up to me to figure out I guess… since unortunately jen isnt always available… for whatever reason.

Theres a crapload of stuff I could go into but I dont want to sit at thecomputer the entire time Im at my Dad’s house… so I’m leaving it at this! I have work tonight. Floorset. Hopefully it won’t run till 7am like last time…

I will leave you with… “Still Alive” from the game Portal, sung by the adorable little computer that tries to bribe you with… cake.

[260] Finally some social activity

When was the last time I updated this thing… Wednesday! And I haven’t really done too much.

I worked on Thursday I think and heard some wonderful news that night but I’m not allowed to say but its really really awesome and Im super excited <3

That night Kyle and I finally talked. Like, a conversation actually occurred between the two of us and there wasnt any fighting or anything. Turns out Kyle has something big planned for me for christmas… but its for the 20th apparently. He told me to take the 20th off… and I have no idea why. But thats my christmas present, and hes fairly certain, actually hes damn sure that Im going to love it… He also said that I could buy anything and it wouldn’t hinder his gift to me in any way… I’m quite confused, to say the least. The gift I have for him is incomplete at the moment though. It wont be finished until I get my damn license back… or if I somehow manage to get a ride… 

I have quite a few gifts to pick up actually… I just dont really know what to get people or who to get things for… I was going to get something for Jen, but Jen like many of my friends, is sort of an impulse shopper for certain things and when she really really wants something she’ll most likely get it for herself… so it makes it all the more difficult to get her something. Along with everyone of my other friends. Fucking people. Quite buying shit! Gawd.

Yesterday Kyle and I went to the Mall together. I bought a pair of high tops from Bakers shoes… theyre awesome <3 They’re black with stitched stars in silver on them and it has white and pale blue-green laces Kyle tried to talk me into getting the red and black plaid ones with the roses on the side but I was afraid I wouldnt have many outfits to match the shoes with… but those will be added to my collection soon! I also bought a hat from H&M and invested in another lint-roller, and… another Paramore shirt from Hot Topic. They had the Twilight music Jewelry Box! I really wanted it. I still do. I dunno where to put it though… I have so little room… and I do need it too. I have so many rings and bracelets and necklaces… my pile of jewelry and accessories is growing so fast!

Oh yeah! I also went to GameStop and finally bought myself a game! I got Tales of Vesperia and I fucking love it <3 the main character, Yuri, is completely different from all other cliche rpg heros and so far the characters havent annoyed me too much. I mean, I hate the girl healer but Ive never liked Healers… and they always happen to be female… you know, when I start making video games, Im so not having any female healers. Theyre annoying as shit as shit on a carpet. Yes. I said it; shit on a carpet. 

While I was there, I was tempted to buy Soul Calibur IV and Prince of Persia, though Ive never been a fan of that game. I think I mostly wanted it because of the music used in the commercial for it, that and the graphics are really pretty. Theyre like, sort of cell-shaded! So it was nice. Maybe Ill get it at a later time. When the… price goes down… if it ever does.

After that, I finally got my damn cloves! The guy that usually sees me there asked me if I had come in the other day and I said yeah. He said he knew it was me and went out and bought more Cloves just for me haha. Awesome dude. I smoked like 4 of them last night alone x_x I think I have a problem… but when I explained it to my Mom the previous day, she said its cuz Ive been home so much and that the same thing happens to her; she smokes twice as much when shes at home but way less anywhere else. I guess we just really hate being home u_u The other thing is that I was so low on Cloves… I literally only had one left, so having that one, made me want more…

After purchasing burger king, we headed over to Mike’s to try out the new Mortal Kombat vs DC game for 360… they both know how much Im over MK. I really am sick of it. Once you kill off the main-main character (Lui Kang) you cant have him as a fucking zombie in the next game, and then alive again in the next one. Thats just overdoing it. So I was done with MK, but Mike said that he thinks even I might like MK vs DC and I gotta say… though I suck, I kinda do like it. My Main characters are The Flash and Kitana (did they change the spelling of her name? It looked weird to me when I saw it). Its kinda funny. Kitana was my favorite character for MK back in the day aside from Noob Saibot <3 and for DC.. the only hero I EVER liked was The Flash. All the other ones were so booty to me. 

After that, Mike was going to get laid in Torrington so I had Kyle bring me home. He gave me a hug and then my Dad walked into the garage to get something. It was really funny.. it was like those high school moments when you dont want your parents to see even the most innocent of things when youre with a guy. I went inside and later on when Kyle got home I found out (from him) that he was actually going to attempt to kiss me but didnt once my father came in, and also that he had changed his ind about us never sleeping together again.

I was a little surprised but then at the same time I wasnt. But I also didnt really know what to say to him so I didnt say too much which wasnt too hard because the entire night I really dont know WHAT was wrong with me but I was completely off… for some reason I was incapable of sensing sarcasm or any sort of joke (though Kyle to me isnt very funny at all… bu then again few people are to me) and… yeah I was just really… out of it. It got to the point where Kyle said it wasnt fun making fun of me anymore cuz I was so out of it. Though I think he was kidding. And Im fairly certain he had a blast kicking my ass in MKvsDC since its the only game he can beat me in anyways. But he is a very cheap player.

I stayed up playing ToV till like. 5am u_u;;; its just an awesome game and I adore the Tales series. Plus its a nice little change from Mirror’s Edge. That game frustrates me so goddamn much. lol.

Speaking of ToV.. Imma go play now!